that actually makes alot of sense. i do have the fear of failure still in life. i am a recent college grad, and i just started working professionally in my field, and it is quite challenging. as for the violence though, that is normal. i love harror movies and have a fascination with sadistic cultures, dont worry im not a crazy goth im an art student. thanks for the feedback ill definitley try to focus on something more prevalent and hopefully i will have better results.