I had SP since I've been a child.
Especially when I grew older SP was paired with pure horror & panic feelings.
Noone could explain me what was happening.
I lied in the bed, getting weary and then I knew it will come and it came.
I heard the blood rushing through my vains and was not able to move myself. Felt like burried allive in my body.

Nearly 30 years later, yes I'm an old fuck, I had my own theories and was pretty sure to have found out what's going on. I was able to manipulate my dreams for long and felt somehow gifted. Talking about this to other people was no option, even doctors had no answer for this.

And now I stumbled upon this forum and so many people sharing the same with me. Nevertheless I wish somebody have told me this long years ago. Man I was refusing to sleep ever again.

This is like you climb the highest mountain, just to figure out, there was an escalator on the other side....

SP is pretty weird if you experience it and don't know what it is.
Paired with hallucinations it makes you think "now it's finally done, I'm cracked up, ready for the madhouse"