Prismriver, just adding to the voices here saying you're not crazy. it's happened to me before. i was about your age. over the years it turned from a relationship to an understanding. i realized it's not a real person but the embodyment of all the qualities i would love in a mate. (as was said here already.) so i studied and wrote exactly what it was about this fictional person i loved. not just outer beauty. i listed the things that she loved. among them were writing, gray skies, oil paints, dreams, simplicity, spirituality.

obviously we can't meet this exact person. there will always be qualities we don't expect when we find someone. some are surprisingly good, some annoy us, and hopefully we can adjust and look at things from a new perspective. still, you don't want a grinding relationship. it is good to have a list of things you appreciate and love. the list tells a story because it outlines the person you want to share your life with. we don't need to be overly picky. but it is good to be a selective. as we grow, we learn about our needs and about ourself as a person. we all like to be appreciated and recognized for our personal qualities. we want to be in a relationship where this happens. our true soul is seen by the other. we don't want to be in a relationship where we always feel like something is missing because the other person doesn't seem to even really know us. for instance, if we are a spiritual type person, we want to be in a relationship were this kind of thing is recognized and appreciated.

this dream character represents everything you love and appreciate at this time. but you're still young. so the things you love and appreciate will grow and change. your list will change. but as you grow and change, it is good to be aware of these, and the reasons why you feel that way. so use it as a tool, and think about the reason this dream character even came along. what about her do you love? what does this say about you? about the type of person you want to live with?

we don't necessarily need a dream character to answer these questions. but for us dreamer romantics, we generally dream about love constantly, either asleep or daydreaming.