Thread: What Really Happened?

Hi everyone, cloud9wannablucid here! Sup?

I guess this message is for those who don't mind reading and being patient.

I don't want to put my whole dream up here, but these are my concerns:
Usually when I become lucid, it starts with a FA and I'm only lucid for a minute before waking up, also I can't get out of bed. This morning (Tuesday April 14, 2009) I became lucid (I think) because I recognized a dream sign and acted on it. I realized I was dreaming throughout the dream I kept doing RCs to keep it going. When I awoke this morning I recalled the none lucid parts of my dream and then all the lucid stuff came flooding back. I said, 'Woe, woe, woe! How did that happen and I'm not immediately aware of it?'

Yesterday I said I would give my lucid efforts a break. Then last night I decided to do the WBTB technique. So, I went to bed around 10:30 and set my clock to wake me at 3:00 A.M. I was half sleep when the clock went off. I put on a binaural track and tried to go to sleep even though I knew I wouldn't. I tried not to focus on anything. Eventually I fell out. I awoke at 7:00 to the phone ringing, answered it and went back to sleep. I crawled into bed thinking about how I wanted to be lucid and the dream I had just awoken from.

I fell asleep and had this long dream that started with my previous dream. I re-entered an old dream for the first time and became lucid without a FA. Prior to falling asleep I also thought about how it's possible to be lucid and not remember the dream. I doubted this would happen to me because lucids are so exciting and I have good recall. I can't put the dream up because it was long and no one wants to hear it anyway. However, in the dream I explained to my mom how I knew I was dreaming and tried reading text with my sister, to prove to her that we were dreaming, at least I was. I did a few things I wanted to do but didn't know what else to do, I became bored.

I thought of just waking up and falling to sleep. The rest of my dream (the end) wasn't lucid. So I guess what I want to know is if it's possible to dream you're lucid and not be lucid? Or/And, is it possible that because I willingly gave up my lucidity and kept dreaming, that when I awoke the lucidity aspects seemed surreal? I need help. I don't understand what happened!