Thread: First LD (great LD) in tooo loooong...

Hey everyone, i'm sharing a great LD experience with you and hope that some see it as motivation if they are having a dry spell or haven't been able to break the barrier yet.

Last night i was very intent on talking to myself in the present-tense saying, "i am sleeping and recognize that i am sleeping and am having a lucid dream, i am aware that i am sleeping and here and now i am having a lucid dream."

I didn't repeat it over and over but said it once to myself and focused on that moment between consciousness and unconsciousness before passing into sleep.

I am not one to have nightmares or anything that i would consider terrifying but last night my Ld was brought on by a mix of logic and dark terror fuelled emotions. I would call it an experience over a nightmare but some may see it as a nightmare (if they could see it ).
In my dream it was night and i was in a room that i was not familiar with but was content sleeping in. Everytime i would look toward the window i would see the glare of my reflection briefly and then the shape of a humanoid shadow with a wide-brimmed hat on. It was slightly lighter in the room so the reflection of myself was easier to see than the shadow figure.
Every few seconds the hue inside the room would switch with the hue outside the room, allowing me to see the figure approaching (through the window), then my image, the figure approaching, then my image...etc.

For some reason, the image was not soo much the terror, instead it was the emotion associated with the image and situation. I became confused and could not make out a reason why this was happening like this and who or what the image was.
This is when a bit of logic kicked in. As i was approached by the image and i could feel the terror swell up, i wondered "i do not usually feel terror or fear like this and that makes this very unusual."
I scattered out of the bed and pressed my face close to the window, allowing as much of the terror to fill me as the image was pressed against the opposite side (outside). I'm not completely sure why i jumped into the terror but i think it had somethign to do with slightly realizing that i could be dreaming and i needed to push it a bit further to prove it to myself.

At the window i breathed almost frantically through my nose as i held it shut with my fingers, and yep, there it is!, i can breathe!--instant Lucid! The images al lbegan to fade away into another scene and i could feel the excitement build...i had to hold onto this dream and remembered some techniques some of you on here have used. I spun quickly in circles while shaking my head and trying to "wrap" myself up in the scene so i would not become a passive spectator. On top of that i repeated "AWARENESS! AWARENESS!" trying to hold onto the lucidity.
I gained a fair bit of control, enough to dictate the light and have it become brighter on command, to fly with ease and have a small conversation with one of my DC's (on her ideas about dreaming).

After the dream faded i do not remember going into another but awoke with a great feeling of being relaxed and elated throughout most of the day.
I can say that reading about other peoples eureka moments, experiences, and ideas on DV definately help me get out of my slump even if for only one LD. So don't give up! Keep practicing and motivating yourself no matter how hopeless it may seem. Constantly RC and allow yourself to absorb your daily experiences..good luck!

Do not look back in anger, or forward in fear, but around in awareness.