Dreaming of ceasing to exist

**chilnak** · 11-29-2004 11:02 AM

Hello all, I just joined after lurking for a while. I was glad to see this forum survive its temporary closed status a while back. Anyway, for my first post, I thought I would relate and interesting dream I had a while back. No one I've talked to has had anything like it. Alas, it wasn't lucid (I've yet to really enjoy that pleasure.)

Most of the dream is a fairly standard dream for me. I had just watched the movie Timeline, and something about the wormhole time-travel machine obviously stuck in my mind (this may be only the fifth or sixth time in my whole life that a dream of mine has had anything to to with events from my waking life!). Anyway, in my dream there was a reactor (stemmed from the wormhole device in the movie) that was building up to an overload. I am not sure if I was a participant in the dream or just an observer, but there was a team of three or four people who were in the control room trying to fix the problem. Every two minutes or so the reactor would build up to an energy peak and discharge. Each one was more powerful than the last. The Second to last burst in the dream blew out the rear wall of the control room, exposing the reactor, which now had a swirling vortex building up in it. Two of the team were sucked in. As the reactor built up to the final burst, the room disintigrated, and I was suddenly looking at the outside of the tall skyscraper housing the lab. The top and bottom of the building melted down and up, respectively, toward the center. A similar building behind it did the same. They melted into a sphere surrounding the reactor, which held for about a second and a half. Then it destroyed the universe. While now watching the whole earth from a great distance, I literally saw a sphere of expanding blackness that devoured the whole universe. It took about one second to reach my vantage point, and then there was nothing. I seemed to cease to exist as well. Its like my mind stopped. There were no thoughts, no sensations, no fear... no awareness. I was just not there.

A brief dream scene faded in after that, and I could think again. At that point I got the impression the nothingness had lasted for maybe five to ten seconds. The last part of the dream was just me looking at a single dim star, hearing a brief narration from a voice saying that out of all the universe only one star and one planet were left. I woke up fully then and realized the star I was looking at had been the little light on the smoke detector on my ceiling.

I don't know if the experiance ever scared me, but at the time it certainly was a shock. Like awe, but with a more negative connotation. Anyway, has anyone else had any dream experiances even remotely similar?

**ronso** · 11-29-2004 08:10 PM

Sounds like a fantastic experience, I'm kinda jealous

Originally posted by chilnak
Anyway, has anyone else had any dream experiances even remotely similar?

We're talking REMOTELY similar now

I had a dream where I was sucked into a machine stuck on a wall. It was like a huge fan sucking in everything in the room.
I tried to fight it, but I realized it was no use, so I just threw myself into the machine... In the machine I remember thinking "Am I dead yet?" and all of sudden everything turned black... After awhile I regained my sight and found myself flying over a huge library..
I soon landed on a chair in front of a table, as if I was supposed to meet someone there... and then i woke up

I love this kind of dreams

**chilnak** · 11-30-2004 09:23 AM

Hey, that sounds interesting! It's great when dreams stretch really far away from normal experiance. I am just not fond of the particular experiance I described, because, for all intents and purposes, it was a period of genuine nothingness. For those few seconds, I might as well have not been in existance at all. I wasn't just seperated from all sensory input thinking, "hmm, this is kinda creepy," I was simply not there.

**Mystical_Journey** · 11-30-2004 02:28 PM

Sounds far more interesting than my everyday dreams of going to work, you have a grealtly developed dreaming imagination, thanks for the interesting post

**backlit** · 12-07-2004 01:33 AM

Pay attention to what you have said. Pay attention to what you have felt.

"expanding blackness"
"genuine nothingness"
"separated from all sensory input"

It is my perception that it is this experience of "nothingness" that has intrigued you most, and rightfully so, because there is more to this "nothingness" than you may have imagined. I am sorry I have to be so vague, but further exploration on your part could lead to an interesting discovery.

**Sesquipedalian Dreams** · 12-07-2004 05:54 AM

I dont know if anyone remembers,

But I dreamed i killed myself...

Im in no way suicidal, im a very content person enjoying everything. But I killed myself by shooting myself in the head (i wouldnt let the cops take me alive...)

I experienced nothingness for a minute... Then I awoke in another very icy cold world with a woman giving parking tickets, and a penguin biting me...

yeah, weird

for the full account check here:

http://www.dreamviews.com/forum/viewtopic....ighlight=#13317

god it took me forever to find that.

**chilnak** · 12-08-2004 01:15 AM

You're right, backlit. I am very fascinated by that experiance. While it is hardly my most imaginative dream ever, the nothingness part of it is the most unique dream experiance I have ever had. I will try and put up the complete dream in the Dream Journal section, as soon as I can find my written journal (I type them out on the computer, now.) I enjoy my dreams, as they are always imaginative and unique, despite the risk of unpleasant things happening in them. It is a shame that my recall is so terrible lately. I need to apply more motivation to keeping my dream journal.

Mostly, I am just curious about others who have had similar dream experiances. I am reffering to the nothingness, not necessarily what events in the dream led up to it.

**chilnak** · 12-09-2004 05:01 AM

I finally found my actual written journal entry and posted it on the dream journal forum here:
http://www.dreamviews.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=10352

**Seeker** · 12-09-2004 02:59 PM

Originally posted by backlit
because there is more to this \"nothingness\" than you may have imagined. I am sorry I have to be so vague, but further exploration on your part could lead to an interesting discovery.

Yes, please follow backlit's advice, there is quite a bit to learn in that area. Thank you backlit for mentioning that

**recombinant** · 12-09-2004 05:22 PM

chilnak, I have had something close.....Yet, my experience was not as expansive as yours in the context that the universe, with the exception of one star, was gone. I did not really have a build up and story line that explained how the nothingness occured. It was just me, on what I knew to be the earth after a planet killing cataclysm occured that left earth as nothing more than a bleak, barren, post apocolyptic wasteland. Somehow I had a sense of what happend, almost a peace with the fact that everything was gone. I did not really delve into why the world was like this, but I just knew it was supposed to be this way. I spent the whole dream in between watching myself live in this world of nothing and exploring it myself. I spent most of the time looking for signs of life, and though I knew I would never find anything, I still wanted had to search.

**juliusblock** · 12-10-2004 12:18 AM

I haven't dreamed ceasing to exist - but of being afraid of ceasing to exist. Very core-drillingly frightening! I was in a totally empty - what shall I call it - nothingness - it was in half-light, in front of me appeared something like a building of narrow-spaced paralleled walls so tall, I couldn't determine how high they were. It was pitch dark between the walls -and cooold. The notion was - if I should get drawn into these narrow spaces I would totally disintegrate and lose my life, identity, breath and melt into nothingness. I started to shake and tried to back away but seemed to be cemented in place. Screamed and woke up

**Seeker** · 12-10-2004 03:03 PM

Strange Julius. For me, the nothingness is a calm soothing place!

I've only been there a couple of times, but it was just wonderful for me.

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