Thanks Jammy, I just printed that webpage out (10 pages, not so bad). What was that mystical course you are talking about though? What was its goal?

I know what you mean by all that mystical stuff sometimes being hard to take seriously... but I never really looked at it that way - reading between the lines. I'll start doing that! It's not that I'm not open minded, I like to think I am at least... but perhaps I'm not open minded, and I merely look at new ideas and acknowledge them instead of truly understanding. That's not accepting, that's merely being tolerant... I guess that is that sense of ego showing up again. Can anyone be truly open minded?

I had another question. Is ego dissolution always such a horrible and frightening experience? When I read about the ones that were achieved through the use of LSD, they were described as being horribly terrifying where you experience extreme panick attacks. Do you know if this is the case with the meditative approach as well?

Cheers,
Dylan