Thanks guys. How lovely. I'll take a welcome back from anyone I can... lol. We're all One.
My Lucids have not been so good recently (the last few years) because I have been so hopelessly addicted to Marijuana, which supresses R.E.M. sleep cycles. I've been off it now for four days (the weed, that is), which means nothing as I have succeeded in breaking for that long many times before- two weeks will be more solid.
That being said, even in this short time, my recall is improving every night. Most of my dreams end in a certain kind of Lucidity and always have. It's that awareness as the full effects of chaos and fear well up in their typical, nightmarish climax, that this experience is actually a dream and I can 'opt out' if I choose, which I always do these days because of my dim, drug-addled awareness.
In times gone by however, I was a nightmare crusader, with nightmares often being my most effective ticket into Lucidity. Even as a toddler I was beseiged by nightmares and used to stay awake as long as I could during the night so I would be too tired to dream (clever little bastard). This 'process' sytematically closed my third eye (or whatever you wanna call it). It wasn't until a decade ago or so that I decided to face whatever nightmares I could, knowing their inability to harm me physically.
So upon waking from a terrirfying dream I would do my best to calm myself, resolve my safety (in God), listen to the gradual slowing of my breath and heart beat while maintaining the image or feeling of a main scene or theme in the dream and often before I was even 'ready' I would find myself back in the dream- with or without awareness of the fact that I was dreaming. I can't describe the feeling of resolving a nightmare whilst Lucid, except for maybe by the symbol we call 'joy'. It has to be experienced directly to have any real meaning.
The book, "A Course in Miracles" so beautifully illustrates the unreal nature of fear and ego-identification by describing these 'dark cornerstones of our 'beliefs' about ourselves, others and reality' as thoughts we have locked away, out of 'sight' in a cage of darkness. It emphasises that with assistance from the All-That-Is (accessable through the Holy/Great Spirit) you can (and eventually must) shine the light of 'your' Awareness on these chains of darkness, which can only result in the dissolving of those chains and cages, as the dark can not 'survive' in the Light. Once the cages are seen through we find that the thoughts, ideas, guilts and fears we imprisoned there as a major part of who we believed ourselves to be, are only more 'darkness', which again is dissolved by the Presence of Light (awareness/lucidity) because they have no true reality. This is the restoration (or rather the realisation) of Truth, which can only result in Joy.
Of course (lol) we have this oportunity in waking life, that is the whole point, but because we are still sooooo entagled in the ego's musings and demands it can be difficult to start the journey. This is where nightmare resolution within 'dreams' can be very useful indeed.
So yeah. the only Lucids I've had in the last coupla years have resulted in me chickening out of the experience rather than staying with it... but at least i'm dreaming again. Dark corner stones of the ego watch out!
How about you guys?
Love,
Daen.
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