I'm sitting here reviewing dreams from last night and I'm thinking, "I didn't lucid dream - no success."
Mindful of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy techniques - particularly All-Or-Nothing thinking - I want to change the way I think about my success at being lucid - I want to find a degree of success in every dream. I want to know that, even though I didn't become lucid, I am still taking tiny steps towards achieving my goal.
So, say, for example, I had a non-lucid dream last night about: my boss shouting at me and making me eat his desk.
I find a degree of success in the dream using the MCCAT acronym in the post above.
M - I want to be more aware -
There was some awareness there. I dreamt, which is a start. My awareness was in constant flux throughout the dream. I was first aware of his anger, then became more aware of his shouting, then became more aware when I had to eat the desk. I didn't become lucid, but my awareness did change, and soon it will change to the point where I have control in my dreams.
C - I can be aware of my brain-in-a-bowl and of its controller.
I didn't have that thought in the dream last night. However, to a degree I did know that there was an outside influence on me - my boss. My boss had a degree of control over my existence. In future dreams there will be others who have control over me. I will remember that, and eventually I'll know that the only controller is the one who controls my experience in my brain-in-a-bowl
C - I want to assess the degree of my capabilities
Although I didn't RC, when I started eating the desk I wondered how easy it would be to bite through the wood of the desk. So, I did test my reality, my capabilities, even if only to a small degree; I realised I was capable of chewing through wood.
A - Awareness of my senses
The dream was mostly visual, but the boss did shout at me (hearing). I can remember feeling my teeth sink into the wood (feeling and movement).
T - The Good and the Bad
I knew that being shouted at by my boss was bad. However, in this dream, my awareness didn't shift to realising that my brain-in-a-bowl controller was responsible for creating an event I perceived as, "bad".
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