Hi all, i have recently (in the past two weeks) got back into LDing, and within a day i was having some really vivid dreams but i haven't been writing them down.

Anyway, two or so months ago i had a dream that i became lucid, which was the first time that the topic came up in my dream, after a a girl in the dream and i were talking about lucid dreaming. I went to sleep, had an FA then I reality checked, with an arm pinch, and was like "yeaahh!" but i couldn't do anything and when i woke up (in reality) i realised i was just a character who thought he became lucid. It frustrated me because i couldn't become lucid despite what happened in my dream.

Now, two nights ago, i had a VERRRRY long dream, and everytime i went to this bathroom, i tried to switch on the light. It didnt work, and i was like to myself "oh yeah, i read that happens in dreams, remember when you tried to lucid dream?". Then i ignored it and went on my way, because the dream was tooo vivid!

Finally, last night i had yet another really realistic dream, but at one point i decided (do not remember why) to reality check. It felt very odd when i pinched myself, so i thought "Hold on, maybe i am lucid dreaming! Yahoo!" and got really excited, so i decided to try something to test it out. I ran down stairs and jumped a few steps, in an effort to float, but it failed. "Maybe its too complex at the moment". So i ran into my living room and saw my mother who was insulting me. I stared her right in the face and put all my effort in disintegrating her with my mind. I stared for a good minute and then thought to myself, while seeing her utterly confused face, "Hmpf, maybe i am not lucid dreaming", then i woke up!

So frustrating! What does this mean!?