hi, on this site I have to call myslf 'the natural', as lucid dreaming is a fairly reg occurance for me. I just joined this site, been lucid dreaming 25 years, I didnt know it was called lucid dreaming. In fact I thought lots of people had lucid dreams as i did.
At least in my case lucid dreaming has alwys been a natural part of my life.
Please post some responses as my first fost hardly got responses and I would like to hear from other lucid dreamers...
As I said I have had lucid dreams for 25 years, they started when I was about 13.
At that time I eas finding myself having the same re occuring bad dream... you know the one... very scary....very dark, black... and something in the black is chasing you... but you can only run in slow motion....
Very scary dream, wishing it would end, but feeling powerless within the dream. Waking up scared, panicked, and tired, as my dreams usually continue throughout the night.
So this scary persistant dream, was reoccurring, for months, and I really wanted to stop or change it. Especially thinking as I was falling asleep that the darkness may be waiting for me.
Now it could be that just wanting to stop this scary dream caused me to have dream control, but I think it was also one very traumatic dream that happened one night.
You see I was a sleepwalker, fairly regularly, at the time. I even had mutiple alarm clocks, that I would move every night before bed, because during the night sleepwalking I would turn them off regularly, unless they were moved because I couldnt find them.
On this perticularly disturbing occassion:
I suspect it was around 3am, but I will never know.
Absolute blackness in my room, you could see nothing, the blackness that only basements offer.
I wake up... well sort of...half awake...Not wake up from a bad dream but wake up confused about where I am.
The problem is... I'm paralised. I believe there is a name for this.
I cant move, I cant move... or feel anything.
I mean I am so paralized that I cant feel or move my fingers or toes. So I cant feel my own body, mouth,eyes, nothing... Just the blackness around me. No feeling of sheets beneath me, or covers around me, just ...nothing.
And I was completely disoriented, no idea of where I was...
Not awake, not asleep, definately confused definately scared...
Imagine if you awoke in absolute blackness, no sounds, paralisis, no feeling, absolutely sensory deprived.
I was frozen like that for quite some time... I mean hours, my brain half functioning, enough to be thinking what is going on. Why can I not move, or hear or see, but this was not a dream, yet I was not fully awake either.
Hours passed, and eventually I began to believe that where I was, in the darkness, no body to feel, no anything, was the reality, and that life as I had known it, was the dream, that I had now awoken from.
In those hours of sensory depravation, in the blackness, of sound, sight, smell, and feel. With nothing to tell me otherwise, I truely came to the conclusion that this blackness was reality, that I was, not of body, simply thought, and that life was my dream.
Half asleep half awake, frozen, paralized. This lasted for hours.
Eventually, there was a sound, the noise a house may make in the night... but I heard it, which meant there was more than just blackness... that would mean there was a body to control under my consciousness. I had to simply wake up a little more.... Fingers....feeling....slowly gaining body control and senses, but still the blackness...
I'm not in bed...no bed, no sheets, but I do have a body, and I now feel the ground under my feet. Still the blackness surrounds me, but I can turn my head, but when I open and close my eyes still blackness.
I'm scared now, I reach in every direction around me and feel nothing.... I have to walk forward. I knew I must have slept walked and that I could be anywhere. I needed to take steps forward... It took a long time but step by step I eventually did walk forward, and there I found a wall.
Of course I worked my way along the wall and found a door and then a light...
And then It was over!!!
I could not feel a bed as I had been standing for that many hours in the darkness, frozen, paralized, but it was over. You see I was standing half asleep half awake, but I eventually forced myself into consciousness, I eventually said 'just wake up' and I did.
No that experience was not a dream, but I think the reoccuring scary dream combined with this eperience, forced me to have control in my dreams.
Perhaps a sort of self preservation.....
A scary dream would come and I would feel bad and I would say to myself wake up, half awake, then I would say, lets change this dream, replace or alter what was going on, then fall back to sleep.
Eventually changing my dreams to what I wanted was routine. Making sure nothing bad happens in them, and that they are totally enjoyable. Whatever you can imagine you can dream, and I probably have.
I still sleepwalk, although less, nothing I can do about that.
So I think I Lucid Dream as a learned self preservation.
Take Care
David 'the natural'
PS
Is lucid dreaming really that uncommon???
Perhaps there is alot of people like me that did it without really thinking much about it, as I have always done it.
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