Ok i have already said i put down LDing until Summer Vacation but i still get LDs every once and awhile. And every time i do become Lucid and my DCs know about it, they attack and wake me up. Every time i see something wierd and i want to do a reality check i find myself looking around to see if anyone is looking and when i feel satisfied i do my RC. What usually happends though is that i do my RC and I relise i am dreaming. Then usually yell it out because i am excited. Then all the DCs around me say "He is awake, GET HIM!" Then they jump on me and strangle me until i wake up. I feel uncomfortable knowing now that all my DCs know it is a dream and are trying to keep me ignorant of it. This could end up being a problem when trying to LD. What if this gets out of control and my DCs succeed in keeping me ignorant.

What is up with this. I think it could be because of stress and what is going on lately. I lately feel the whole world is against me (that might be it). I am confused in what my beliefs are. I find myself questioning every thing around me. I have a sence of impending Doom. I have fully relised that everyone ends eventually. I used to comfort myself with that problem by saying to myself "I am young" but time is going by fast lately. And i am not sure what comes after death. Nothing, Paradise, Reincarnation... ETC.