Linkzelda's Workbook

I have tonight and tomorrow night to hopefully become lucid and finish the extra credit.

I know I shouldn't kill myself in accomplishing that, because that will only make me even more irritated and impatient.

I plan to take 6mg of Melatonin tonight, set the alarm to wake me up after 4 hours of sleep, and HOPEFULLY, the laptop won't have some stupid windows update, which would screw up the timer, and I might get into a DEILD with the alarm waking me up, or a WILD if I happened to set it to where I being my REM cycles.

I'm making it an objective to find out what's in the gray letter, and find if Eva is really my dream guide or not.

Thinking about other things other than having her as a dream guide kind of makes things awkward. It wouldn't be comfortable having an entity that basically teaches things, and have them be some kind of sex buddy at the same time.

So if she ends up being my dream guide, I'll probably just eradicate those childish fantasies of her.

It's getting disgusting, but I guess that's normal for an 18 year old guy who barely has a sense of reality.

Hope I get a a lucid dream or more tonight, because I have soooo much time tomorrow to sleep....and tonight as well.

It's going to be that way, at least for 4-5 days at least.

Ehhh....*sigh*

EDIT: Will also set the alarm to wake me up at 90 minutes the first time AFTER the 4 hours of sleep, then one hour the second time, and probably 45 minutes in the next.

This should help with dream recall....it should.

I'm kind of worried though, I feel that I will have to open my eyes to type up any dreams I recall during those intervals, but I guess it shouldn't betoo bad, since I know I'll wake up to the alarms anyway, and get some practice with keeping my eyes closed.

I honestly don't have any problems with closing my eyes to enter a WILD or a DEILD, but I do seem to have problems hearing the alarm at times, even when I extended it to at least 8 seconds or more.

Anyway, better go to sleep.

The more I slack off in finding Eva, the more those dream signs of blonde females will appear, and it's obviously a sign leading towards her, or it could just be my imagination.

But whatever happens.....happens.

I remembered two dreams. One from last night, and the other from morning time.

The one from last night was pretty long, I found Anderj101, or at least someone that looks like him while I'm looking above from a really high green hill. I saw someone who looked like Carrot as well.

I also met a dog that looked like the Sulimov type of dog, and I think he was barking to acknowledge that he's here to help me or something, but I'm not sure. My initial thoughts were to focus on catching up to Carrot, who is running away from someone, so whether the dog being there to chase me or be my friend was just something that was speculated for a split second.

The dream shifts, and I meet a blonde sitting next to me. We're both sitting a restaurant. I don't know who is in front of me though, and the blonde sitting next to me herself was only viewable through my peripheral vision. The last I remember of her was that she was sipping some kind of drink, wearing a light brown silk-ish or transparent strapless dress with her right leg over her left.

I could just....her hair....just looking at it through peripheral vision, someone about it made me want to get closer to her...ugh, I get this tingling feeling just thinking about it...

Anyway

Carrot and Anderj101, Talking to Carrot - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

And damn, it really is hard getting a lucid, but I can't complain, have to stay consistent with the CANWILD tech now that I have some time during the week, and probably for a month and a half to get it down. Hopefully before that period ends, I can figure out how to do it with perfection, or close to it, because it's really not hard, just estimating when I hit REM is the challenge.

But it will be worth it in the end, because I know I had a lucid doing it the first try months ago when I came on this forum.

Plans for tonight

Find Alyzarin, and if that doesn't work out, find out the person who she thinks might be her dream guide.

It should be fun seeing if I can find her dream guide instead of mine.

I think Melanieb has been busy, so I probably won't find her, the best thing that would happen if I did would be me finding her dream guide. :P

Since this is a Shared Dreaming Attempt, I might get lucid because me and Alyzarin are pretty much good buddies, but I'll leave those reasons away from this workbook because I wouldn't want to declare much about things beyond dreaming, even though it gets harder to resist it, especially with my dream of Carrot last night and this morning.

When I have Shared dreaming attempts, anything can happen.

Anyway, I've been doing nose plug reality checks for most of the day, so the RC is steady. I'm not really too serious about reality checks in general, since I'm always busy in my non-lucid state (most of the time).

I think it's the fact that I don't have the time to breathe and speculate that makes it difficult to become lucid through MILD/DILDs, forcing me to perform WILDs and DEILDS most of the time.

Because whenever I had moments in my non-lucids where I basically do nothing and stare, I'll start to notice something is wrong (like the fact that I'm supposed to be in bed of course).

But even in those moments, I would make careless and stupid mistakes and forget to do the nose plug reality check anyway.

As for the alarm, setting one after 3.5 hours of sleep, then adding on 90 more minutes to that (5 hours), and then another 90 minutes to do (6 hours 30 minutes), and 1 hour (7 hours and 30 minutes).

I find that if I keep doing it this way, my dream recall is amazing.

Usually, I don't have to conform to setting things at different intervals after NREM is usually established, seeing as I can grab snippets of other dreams and recall them just fine.

But, I've realized that doing 3.5 hours of sleep and the alarm ringing might trigger me to get up anyway instead of doing the CANWILD. So I would usually take that time to do a WBTB in a way to type up any dreams, and save the other intervals like the 5 hours of sleep mark for the actual CANWILD.

I believe this is beneficial because it keeps my mind more aware than it was before if I slept through all 5 hours without a breaking point, and it helps with recall with dreams during the 3.5 hour mark.

And since I have lots of time, I can save the CANWILD attempts for the 5 hours, 6 hours and 30 minutes, and the 7 hours and 30 minute marks.

Taking 6mg of melatonin as well. I'll be sticking to that amount for a week, and then next week (though this won't matter since lesson 4 will be done by then), I plan to take a little more melatonin to see if it has a slight effect on vividness and/or stranger dreams.

As if my dreams can get that random.....Anyway, time to shower real quick and hopefully that'll relax my body to sleep faster, especially with the Melatonin.

The reason I'm splitting the alarm at different intervals is because a little discussion I had with Alyzarin with the REM rebound related to Melatonin, I can't take any chances except to do the interval thing.

Okay, attempt for finding Alyzarin was a fail, Lol.

Had a bunch of stupid dreams.

-Yuna from Final Fantasy is masturbating in front of me....how am I not finding this abnormal???
-A guy is trying to sell his suit....lmao....okay...
-Someone says I'm fat....
-Skull Helmet...eh.
-A Jump Shot in Wii sports lets you serve pass the service line...okay, that was just a COMPLETELY random dream..

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Extra Credit: Receive 100 hall points per lucid experience this week.

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OKAY...LET'S DO THIS!

THIS CANWILD tech is going to WORK this week!!!!

I'm definitely going to try and attend the Tuesday class, I hope I can think of some questions though, lol.

Good luck Link, I know you can do it.

See you in chat.

Okay, I BARELY remembered the fact that I had a lucid this morning, because as I woke up from it (still keeping my eyes closed), I had another dream that I remembered a lot of details. Even as I was distracting myself by browsing stuff on the internet, the recall was still intact. In fact, I could've went deeper and deeper on the experience, but I felt it was enough.

As for the lucid, it was DILD because I found my self in a quiet area walking, and then had a "Wait a second...." moment and did a nose plug reality check. Sadly, the most I can recall from that lucid is just me describing how the environment felt like, and the city on the horizon as I'm being shaded by several skyscrapers.

So that's one lucid experience down, OH YEAH!!!

If I can get the CANWILD tech right this week, oh man.......the potential for several DEILDs (if I fail at the attempt that is).....loool, I just can't wait!

I also did a reality check when I was adding some images for my DJ entry, and saw the imgur had some ad to like their Facebook page, and to not be a noob and ignore them...loool.

DJ Entry here

Woohoo congratulations Link!

Not much went on last night, slept pretty late.

I was going to type my dreams fully when waking up, but got lazy and just put in a new notes.

Weird dreams, girl with tentacles, and I can't even remember.

And something related to a Bunny Girl....:whyme:

All right, took 3mg of melatonin, going to let it set a little bit.

I'm going to try and do some meditation to relax myself, since it's ~12:45 AM right now.

I'm going to set the timer for 30 minutes when meditating, and not focus on it as all, this will give me time to get my daily practice with getting used to the loud alarm I set up for myself.

Yesterday morning was a success with me being able to hear the alarm, keeping my eyes closed, remaining still, it's just that I also needed to work on Visualization.

Week is almost coming to a close....man, sooner or later, I'll already be attending my second year at my University!

Reality checks where sporadic, and instead of questioning my reality, I tried to apply the reverse RC Sageous declared in another class and just focus on wondering where I was the last few minutes, and what I plan to do in the next few minutes.

:okbyenow:

Last night wasn't so bad, I met InvisibleWoman, but just on IRC, she was showing me an anime picture of a lady with large breasts. She resembled a sex demon named Sayako in a movie that took the life force of men when she seduced them.

I also had a dream with purple scarabs in a lecture room at a college....first time I've seen scarabs in a loooong time, in fact, I don't recall remembering any kind of insects in my dreams, other than the False awakening I had in my early months of DV where I heard beetles making those sounds when they shed.

I also found myself taking a random path by following these two women to a bus stop, when I could've ignored them and went somewhere else.

Purple Scarabs, Almost Late to the Bus, InvisibleWoman - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

No lucids thought, but what intrigued me with the bus dream was that one of the girls said it was almost 7:25 something....and recalling it now, it was probably a cue that I would be getting out of one of my REM cycles I guess. I had an alarm to wake me up at 7:45 AM, and her mentioning that number to her friend couldn't have been coincidence...Interesting...

I'm getting used to the alarm waking me up, that's good, and my eyes and body remain still, that's good.

Just have to practice it as usual, and then add some visualizations as well to get the most out of the CANWILD tech.

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Originally Posted by Linkzelda

No lucids thought, but what intrigued me with the bus dream was that one of the girls said it was almost 7:25 something....and recalling it now, it was probably a cue that I would be getting out of one of my REM cycles I guess. I had an alarm to wake me up at 7:45 AM, and her mentioning that number to her friend couldn't have been coincidence...Interesting...

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Interesting.. I agree, I don't think it was a coincidence either. It's not uncommon for certain elements of your wake-up routine (looking at your alarm clock, questioning the time, brushing teeth, taking shower etc) to appear in your dream just at the end of a REM cycle.

Your subconscious is giving you signs!

I took like 15 mg of melatonin, I heard the alarm at some points, but wasn't conscious enough to be aware for a bit longer. The reason is most likely because I slept REALLY late....like at 4-5 AM late. So I took the melatonin for the lols, and woke up pretty late, like around 1-2PM.

Lecture Room Urinal, With Alyssa, Drown him, Grenading like a Boss, Ada Wong and Wesker.... - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

Weird dreams.

Some dream signs

Resident Evil 4
College
Lecture Room

Bleh.

Why are you going to bed at 4-5am?

It was just a one time thing, I don't know...I guess I didn't feel like sleeping that time, but the Melatonin helped me a lot, so I'm fine.

I'm not going to do it daily, so no worries. :P

Ok good :)

Woke up from the alarm, eyes closed, body still. But here's the thing that was a challenge, keeping myself awake.

I tried to tell myself "I'm awake! I'm awake! I'm awake!" but I find myself feeling a bit groggy, and then I tried to calm down, and I also forgot to do a visualization to get into the dream. I think some distractions in waking life like the T.V. could've affected my chance of lucidity, but I had the timing PERFECT.

I wasn't startled or anything, but now I just need to remind myself of creating a dream scene next time...UGH I was SO close! But I'm glad I'm getting used to this alarm blaring. I know that I need a good amount of sleep if I want to hear it, because like yesterday night, if I try to set it for 3 hours in advance, chances are, I'm not going to hear it...I might, but I probably would drift into an unconscious state.

I probably won't get decent sleep tonight since there's a party tonight over here, well, it's more like a hang out, but not anything I'll be participating in, other than babysitting the children and teenagers that some of the parents might bring over. Which means I'm going to be in a LOT of stress if they don't behave and just play the video games.

Because video games seems to shut them up, but then I have to worry if that other kid is coming along with the children. Ugh...just thinking about it makes me want to....never mind, this is off topic.

Anyway, when I have time, I'll probably set the alarm to wake me up after 6 hours of sleep instead of doing the 3.5 hours, +90 minutes + 90 minutes + 60 minutes intervals that I've been doing.

I'll probably do a 6 hours, +1 hour + 1 hour instead, seeing as I'm on vacation.....kind of worried though, will have to find some scholarships, even though I won't really need them...ugh there I go again...

As for the dreams,

I met Onision, the guy with the YouTube channel, and he wants me to do a drawing of someone. I don't know who it is, but I agree with him, but when I tell him how I set up the payments to do the drawings, the dream fades.

The second dream was me at a bookstore of some sort, I get distracted, then focus my attention on paying on whatever it is I'm buying, and I have more money than I thought I had.

The third dream had so much passive behaviors, that I'm honestly pissed that I'm not aware that I was at my University, because I'm not over there in waking life.

:facepalm:

Wow, one more day huh? It's already gone by so quick, I'm going to miss this, you're a great teacher OpheliaBlue, but I'll save the formalities for later.

http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/link...college-33544/

Hey I'm not even worried about you Link. You keep extensive journal entries which display great detail, you achieved lucidity, and you will again.

Work hard, play hard, I always say ;)

(and I will always have a little chuckle to myself, whenever I click "Open Link in New Tab" :chuckle: )

I don't remember ANYTHING from last night.

Hahahaha, it's been a while since I've had this.

Just for reference:

Only 1 lucid experience so far

No dreams recalled at all, but I'm going to take that time to do some dream interpretation. Some in-depth interpretation of all of my behaviors both non-lucidly, and lucidly.

Anyway, I'll leave things off with some personal interpretations of my dreams.

Golden Eagle, Thunderbird, Putting the Pieces Together. (Dream interpretation) - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

It's long, but it felt good to analyze my dreams for once.

Thanks for being a great teacher OpheliaBlue, and you too fOrceez!!! You guys worked hard, and we all are grateful that you two volunteered to give what you know to us. Means a lot!

I'm not sure if I want to sign up again, because the classes are great, but my mentality seems to have been even more sporadic than ever.

I'm having thoughts of giving up, trying again, giving up, trying again, repeat, then saying waking life is just fine, then going back to dreaming life because I'm worried about waking life.

All too much for me. Sigh, I'd like to keep a log and everything, but maybe I'll have to go solo and get serious this time, like REALLY serious. Because 24+ lucids out of 300+ dreams recall (probably way more than that too) is an obvious sign that I'm probably not doing anything right.

I already know how it feels to be in a dream.
I already have decent recall.
Thanks to this course, I've gotten better at being consistent.


Sigh. Maybe I'll join next time if there's another class after this. I wish all the new students and ones still continuing this course many lucids! :)

Again, thanks for all your help Ophelia, I guess it's time I take a look at changing my mentality on lucid dreaming, because it's starting to get worse each day.

I do hope your find your motivation to keep up the LD efforts!

With luck, and time off from school, perhaps the efforts will be easier.


I am a fan of your dreams!

I know how you feel Link. Don't worry about starting the class again now or later or whatever. I'm phasing it to a user-paced structure. That way it's ongoing and you can join up again at anytime, and set your own deadlines. I'll still be here daily to check journals and workbooks, so feel free to post whatever you want, whenever. Just don't stress about it. I've noticed that you, more than any other person I have ever worked with (whether now in DVA, or the adoptions program of yesteryear), you over think and stress yourself out of lucid dreaming. I think this is because you're worried about failing, and this becomes a self-fulfilled prophesy.

However, the bottom line is, you care about lucid dreaming. You WANT to lucid dream, and you are more than willing to do all the work necessary to get there. Just scrap the self-pressure and you're good as gold. You've been lucid before, you know what it feels like, and how to get there. So you can do it again. And we'll be here for you in the meantime. :)

Sweet dreams, and never give up, Link :)