Greetings, story of my life.

[Tahstairiah]

Hello, my name is Tahstairiah Selstarzy Nixcee Marley. That is my birth name it's extremely long but I love it. I was googling because I Was bored and I always seem to know when something extraordinary is about to happen I just have a feeling, I've been reading some posts and I'm not the only one so that feels better. I was born in Thesalonnikki, Greece and I moved to USA when I was 2. My parents abandoned me so I was put in a foster home and still remain a foster child till this day. Basically my life's mission is to find my parents; dead or alive I want to find them. I keep having these dreams with my mama and my papa I see them and when I awake I feel so empty because they're still out there and all I can do is dream. I am so lonely sometimes it eats at me and I try not to feed into it but it just grabs me, during my stay here in the united states I've picked up on a bunch of things that I just don't understand, and others I can relate to. At my first foster home my foster parents were abusive my foster dad molested me on several occasions and I have rage that's buried in time within me and can help it but sometimes it'll leak and find it's way out of me. I've had dreams of flying, dreams of feeling powerful, dreams of dying, dreams of me fighting Colossal constructs, dreams of me visiting places that are unreal in fact those places only exist in video games such as World of Warcraft, I once had a dream that I foresaw a new expansion for that game, my dream was the 1st video that came out for that expansion and I recall several parts of the video that I had already seen. A few months ago I was told by a Rastafari that I am the reincarnation of Tafari Makonnen, I was shocked; shocked that such a responsibility now lies with just a child, but also that he bowed before me and kissed my feet. He told me to decipher my entire name and the name "Haile Selassie I" would be embedded in my name. So I did it, and there it was, right before my eyes. Why such a huge responsibility lies with me? I am still unsure of. What my purpose in this world is, I am still unsure of; there is confusion and conflict in my mind that I have disciplined myself to deal with, there are trials and tribulations that I must overcome, I am on this earth for a reason still cloudy to me but I will sure find out. Anyways, I thought this would be an appropriate place for my story, maybe somebody will give me some insight and guidance.

[MarkieP52]

Lucid dreaming is a great way to escape, it can be theraputic imo, but with your background you may need more no offense. While it's great to fly around and rule the universe in the end it's only in your head, and you need to find a way to enjoy waking life just as much. Welcome to the forums

[Tahstairiah]

Thank you dude, I've never even noticed what lucid dreaming is.. It occurs so much in my dreams like I am there and I control whatever I do and before I came here I never noticed that like there was a name for what was going on I thought it was just normal. I am forever grateful.