Thread: madness

ok, first time ive ever even heard about this sort of thing, as im not the most open minded wen it comes to religion, supernatural etc, but tonight really shook me up. ill go thru it in 3 sections

i was lying in bed reading, then put book down and decided to go to sleep, then i dreamt as usual, except it felt sort of strange, like i was more aware than usual, this was very weird so i forced myself to wakup

1)

after lying there for a while i decided to go back to sleep, however this time it was the same, so i thought hell, may as well give it a go, i was walking around on this road outside my flat, then i was thinking about what i shud change, so i looked up at the sky and decided to try and create an aurora, since i always wanted to see one, and holy shit, the whole sky turned into a myriad of colours and swirls, was amazing, this made me so excited i was laughing in my dream, i think i got a bit over excited since i wokup again and was lying there grinning it was so amazing

2)

third time i went back to sleep once more, this time intent on controlling this shit, and again i felt aware, i got up out of my bed (in the dream) and walked around my flat, learning to walk was very weird, its hard to explain but it sort of felt like i had t learn that walking was "ok" in your dreams and it was alright, this whole awareness thing was kind of scary still though, so i was walking around deciding what I was going to do, then i remember my brother telling me how wen i was akid i broke all my grandparents expensive china stuff or something and threw it in the fire, so i figured, hey maybe i can reaccess that memory, so i changed the setting to my grandparents house, perfectly vivid it was awesome, and i was standing in their lounge figuring out how i was going to re enact this, so i tried to remember what happened, but all thathappend was i changed into a little kid! i was small, it was so strange walking around their house being so short!! was kind fun tho, i got quite frustrated at this point and wanted to see what happeened about the china getting throw in fire, and everything wavered and i wokup

3)

this time, i went to sleep again! and wala, same thing, now it may sound crazy that i wokup and went back to sleep each time, im not sure how t explain it, but i made sure the 2nd and third time i was awake but actually sitting up in bed, and believe me u can tell wen its a dream, but this third time i wanted to try something alittle closer to home, so i walked around the flat i live in, and thought, how cool would it be to re-enact reality by creating my flatmates, and maybe i cud create myself! and talk to myself in my dream, so i stood in the lounge and tried to create my flatmates, but the same thing as at my grapdnparents house happened, eerything wavered and sort of went misty, so i tried again with even more focus and figured i cud overpower this resistance, however just then, the front door opens and a little kid, about 10 or so with shoulder length black hair, runs in the door up to me, this kid (a boy at first) looks up at me and says "they want you, but you can't" and i was thinking "what the hell!" then this kids face twists all strange into a weird distortion and i got the most wrong feeling ive ever had in my life, like it just felt completely wrong, so i wokup and practically jumped out of bed completely awake and shaking, im now writing this a few hours after, and my head feels like ive just sat a 4 hour exam, not bad , just drained, like i didnt sleep but rather was thinking rapidly

so thats that, i searched google and came here, i dont relaly know anything else apart form a rough estimate that the whole thing took about 3 hours