First I want to say ,hi, and introduce myself.My name is nate, and I am married and have 2 children.I used to smoke pot, but about 2 months ago, I quit. Afterwards, I started dreaming again, and now I am able to remember usually 2 per night, sometimes as many as 4. So I have started A dream journal. So far I have had moments, where I tell myself that I am dreaming, but I promptly wake up, leving me wondering if I wake up then tell myself I am dreaming, or if I tell myself I am dreaming, and cause myself to wake up. I feel that I realize it, and for some strange reason it awakens me. I want to stay sleeping, so I do not understand why my body would awaken at these moments. I am not fully lucid however because I have a tendency to tell my wife(in my dream of course) that I am having a lucid dream, when I should realize that she is only a character. One dream was a bad one, and when I realized I was dreaming, and she was still scared, I gave her a knife I was using to fend off these incredibly slow and weak monsters. Then I demonstrated control by throwing one into the other knocking them both to the ground.Next I awoke. Last night I dreampt that myself and my wife were trying to make-shift a lock on our cabin, which was exactly like a 2-room KOA cabin(which frequents my dreams). So with some wedges, we make this lock to help the strengthen the normal lock, and I run into the back room, to see if there is anything else to use. I realize that the windows are open, and as I am closing, and locking them, to keep whatever we are hiding from out, I realize that I am dreaming. I run into the front room, and just as I start telling my wife to relax, because we are having a lucid dream, I wake up! I find this rather disturbing because I want to continue, especially once I realize that I am merely dreaming. I wake up so quickly(except for the monster/knife dream) that I question if I wake up before or after I realize that I am dreaming. I believe it is right after I realize it.
I don't know, funny thing though, 2 nights ago my kids were sick, and I did not dream once, however I woke up at the slightest little wimper. Weird huh?