My first night with the knowledge of lucid dreams

[the gravy train]

I'm still not certain as to how much I want to pursue LDs, wether I want to commit fully or not. I read the entire site yesterday, along with alot of the forums. I started doing RCs, and self suggestion pretty much all day. As I got closer to going to bed (around 2:20 AM, my usual bedtime), I started feeling pretty anxious about LDing, because I was very convinced it would happen that night. I dunno why I got anxious, but I just did. LDing sounds like a friggin awesome thing, and I want to do it, but as I layed down in bed and turned off the light I found myself anticipating it alot. So I just tried to get comfortable, closed my eyes, and concentrated on the noise of my fan. Now it usually takes me awhile to fall asleep, probably around half an hour. I don't know why, it's just always been that way. I think my mind is just active. But as I dozed off, I fell into the period between sleep and consciousness, and started having little dreams. I could feel myself in the waking world, in my bed, I could hear my breathing, although I lost the sound of the fan. The "dream" that I had, while only very slightly dozing off, was very short. It was just of this fat latino looking guy being held back by 2 or 3 other guys. And then, I guess do to the anticipation, I was like 'whoa' and I woke back up completely. Now this happened like 3 or 4 times before I completely fall asleep, with a few other "mini-dreams". And each time I was on the brink of falling asleep, I could sort of feel it happening, sort of a feeling of falling, or maybe ascending, I dunno. Anyways, that feeling woke me up. Throughout the night I'd return to the half awake state, and there'd be dreams I remembered having while I was completely asleep. Now, I can't really remember what they were. I don't think I LD'ed, and if I did I definately don't remember it. So based on all these events, do you guys think it will be easy for me to LD once I have deicent dream recall? Or will my overactive mind give me more nights like this?

[Burns]

Welcome to the forum! The idea of LDing is awesome, but try not to psyche yourself up. The anticipation could become counterproductive. It does sound like you experienced the beginnings of a WILD, or possibly HIT. However, I'm no expert on either one of these techniques, so maybe you'd get more detailed into from other member. But it's definitely progress! Well done! Did you write these dreams (and mini-dreams) down in your dream journal? If not, that's your first piece of homework - start a dream journal and write down ANYTHING and EVERYTHING you can remember. And be consistent - just because a dream may not seem important at the time, it can play an important role in indentifying common dreamsigns or themes. Good luck and have fun!