Please help me guys, i think i am close to lucidity. Here is what happened:

Since three nights ago i keep writing a dream diary but I could not find any dream sign yet. Except maybe a TV. Also I often make reality checks.
I went through this diary before going to sleep last night and to tell it briefly: I was kept awake till 5 in the morning, because this idea of false awakenings I read about was pushing me to make reality checks everytime I open my eyes. At about 4 I stood up for an hour to get in bed as tired as I can. So I lay there, and because I once read about that I should count down from 100 I did and I was feeling that it was working, I was falling asleep, I didn't know which number I had to think about after 78 for example and that is I guess a good sign for falling asleep.
But then at about 35 it happened: I could feel the "awake world" suddenly some kind of tilt and I don't know if I did but it felt like I was turning my eyes this way:
Then I could feel my eyes tremble and twitch and I knew this was REM and I got really excited. My heart was bumping heavily so I was kicked back into reality. I went through this procedure over and over again. I tried to think of a situation I dreamed about the night before, but it didn't help. I tried to focus on some kind of place I want to be at, but it didn't help. I gained control over my excitement when falling asleep but the only result was that I had the feeling of an awake mind and a sleeping body. I could extend the REM phase but all I could see was black - and no this was not the black of the inner side of my eyelids, trust me. When I focused on reality I that inner side was a mixture of grey and yellow because it was bright outside. That's the way I made it through the night...

What am I doing wrong?