Wow, this has got to be the longest introduction post I've ever seen!

Anyway, welcome to the forum

If you haven't already, maybe you should check out the nightmare tutorial. You may find something you can use to stop the dreams you're having.

Don't get freaked out about SP - just know that if you relax, it'll pass. Nothing to be afraid of.

Please feel free to post any questions you may have. Good luck!