I logged two dreams in the journal this morning... one at 5:15 and one at 8:20. Amazingly enough I actually noticed oddities in both dreams and attempted to RC in both cases.
I have been RC'ing by reading something. I have been very diligent about making sure that when I have the thought to RC I do not let anything keep me from it. For example, I was at an outdoor concert over the 4th of july weekend. I normally read whatever is handy, but I wear a bracelet all the time which has four markings on it, which I will read if nothing else is around. I got the idea to RC, so checked my bracelet. It was too dark outside to see. I had a friend with me who recognized what I was doing, and i almost stopped b/c I felt self concious about it, but I thought, if you give up because of dim light now, then the light will always be dim when you are dreaming. I went to my wallet and found a business card with bold print that I could read clearly in the dark, and finished the RC.
So last night I found myself in an odd situation. I can't say that I doubted reality, or thought I was dreaming, or even that I intended to RC, and yet after things got really odd, I found myself opening a book in my dream and trying to read. Unfortunately the book that I opened was a coffee table book with nothing but pictures! I was distracted by the pictures for a while, even flipping through the book idly. Next I went to a desk and got a pen, feeling that there was something I needed to write down. The pen turned out to be an old fountain pen, and I didnt know how to get it to write. The owner of the pen went into a long discussion of the pen and its history and usage etc etc, which I found fascinating, and by the end i forgot all about writing down something to read.
I woke up from that one thinking that maybe I had been trying to rc and maybe not. After logging the dream in my journal I went back to sleep. Next time I woke up it took me a second to remember / realize the dream I had just had. Things had become a little strange in my dream and I had a sudden urgent need to get something from my car. I raced to the car, fumbled with my keys, and got a peice of paper off my clipboard from work. It is a hand-written schedule sheet telling me where to be and what time. I recognize it by the shape of the paragraph of writing, I see it and know what it is but dont read it. I am confused. Its night time, I cant understand why I need to read my schedule when I dont have to work until tommorow. Suddenly I am really sleepy, and my body feels heavy. I am actually so tired I am having trouble moving. I lay down in the car. Some friends come by outside and tell me to hurry up, so I sit up again, remember the paper in my hand and I think, what in the hell is so important on this paper! Why am I here? Looking down the paper is completely changed, although I dont notice it at the time, it is now typewritten in very crisp black and white big bold print on shiny paper. It looks like a magazine ad. The words are very clear and easy to read, but they are laid out in block paragraphs with no punctuation, just one word after another filling the whole page border to border. I have to really focus on it because of the lack of puncuation, and the words are put together in a way that makes very little sense. It says something like "A convertible GE to GM Prime Rate Mortgage with Adjustable Timing Belt and Padded Seat Cup Holders" Thats the first line, but the whole page is filled with this nonsense, its a mix of car information and finance information all jumbled together. I am confused, then it hits me: its some kind of advertisment and they are making a joke about how confusing it is to buy a car with all the lingo etc etc. I notice that the car radio is on, and a voice is reading this gibberish out, as the announcer is doing a pitch about how his company will help cut through the maze of terminology and make car shopping easy, blah blah blah. And thats the end of my RC -- I put the page down, get out of the car and go to meet my friends.
ARG! : ) I am getting close now. Maybe reading stuff is not working for me as an RC? But i am afraid to switch now that my RC is starting to show up in dreams. Should I change to a different RC or maybe add a second step to the process when I am awake? Thanks for help so far. Still looking for more info on my original post as well.
--J
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