Hi everyone, I am so happy that I found this forum.
The thing is that I used to be a Lucid dreamer years ago, and just recently I decided to awaken my lost ability for lucid dreaming. I am not so good with the terminology and abbreviations that are being used on this forum (for example: what is a WILD?) But I used to be so good not only in Lucid dreaming but in Dream control as well. In fact, for me it was just the same thing: as soon as I became aware that I am in a dream - I could control my dream, I could do anything, change the scenery, change or create the people and characters in my dream.... fly, run... whatever... there were not any limits in my dreams.... It was amazing, and fun and realy enjoyable... there was not any bad aspect in it at all..
Then something happened... I got scared ... and I stopped the lucid dreaming. and I have never tried it again.
Years passed. I have had a very happy life and I still do... but something happened in my real life that made me go back to look for some answers. Trying to find my answers I was guided to the lucid dreaming again. But I have discovered that I have lost my ability ...and I could not do it again . So I read some things on this web site, and amazing things started to happen... For example, one night I read some advice on how to start lucid dreaming.. and the very same night in my dream I tried to apply that method. It was amaizing that I could remeber that stuff in my dream and try it... (so I would say it was lucid, wasn't it?) however, without ability to control the dream it is not even close to what I am trying to achieve.
Also, just a few days after reading about dream signs, I had this dream: I am in my kitchen and I look at my watch and see that the numbers look very strange. In the same instant I think: this must be a dream, this is a dream sign. So I say:lets change the dream. And I try to change the scenery, but I could not do it, I stayed in the kitchen wondering why it is not working...In the dream, I am still aware that it is a dream and that I should be able to control it, but somehow I do not know how....
I know that eventualy I will be able to do it again, but I would appreciate some help ... it seems you know a lot about this and the info I found here has already helped me a lot...
and what about this Adoption program?
Looking forward to your answers... and may you all have wonderful dreams and fly high.... With love and magic....
Sanjar
p.s. and if I have learned anything from my expirience so far, then it is that dreams are NOT JUST DREAMS.... there is so much more to it