Welcome to DV Justan!

Although it is normal to dream about our past, people from our past, and fear I suspect something else is going on besides disturbing dreams for you. Being 18 can be hellish and very confusing.

I hope you find friends and good advice here! There are a lot of great people at DV.

But honestly I think you should consider going to a doctor and talking about what has been going on in your mind lately. Confusing dreams with reality even when you wake up is not a fun thing to do.

Good luck!