Quote Originally Posted by The Cusp View Post

For instance with your old friend, you have a huge assortment of experiences you associate with them, places, people. You know those things very well.
That must be it! Thank you Cusp. Now it makes lots of sense. When I was RC'ing forcefully it has a feeling that it is like a duty to do, not associated with the rest of my life, no associations with anything. I was doing it with force and clarity but nature of that focus somehow feels like the whole RC experience is seperated. I don't know how to put it but it's something like the times when you step in an elevator while talking and that uneasy elevator silence comes in. That kind of being focused.

I guess I'll have to find a way to make my RCs more personalized and friendly.