here it goes again....

[d384]

k im new to this site and wanted to share to try to get some feedback on whats going on with my unconscious mind. i swear i feel that sometimes I astral project myself. I feel like I did when i was a kid as well as an adult...is it for real or is my imagination so strong that its causing this confusion in my brain. over the course of my life I have had some wicked dreams. Turned into night terrors about 7-8 years ago. I stopped sleeping and developed severe insomnia. Im very chemical sensitive so when the doc prescribed sleeping pills, not only didn’t it work but the next day made me feel super angry. So i stopped the pills. He offered a sleep study in which I passed up. Before this time I hadn't been smoking marijuana, but started ir up only to one help me fall asleep and 2 stop my dreaming. Needless to say it worked like a charm. After a long time this not only became expensive, but i noticed I didn’t remember my dreams as if I never dreamed anymore. I know everybody dreams but couldn’t remember them. Well i stopped smoking a few months back and at first everything was fine. Then i noticed I was dreaming again or actually i should say remembering. These dreams were pretty vivid. Lots of stress in my life right now and over the course of the last 2 weeks...ive returned to my old dreaming patterns. Extremely vivid dreams, from very joyous to down right terrifying. Tonight’s really cut the cake tho...and I needed to share it with someone. I wasn’t asleep long and truth be told literally 45 mins. I didn’t even think i was a sleep and if not i need to know what was going on. the dream:: i usually sleep with at least 1 light in the house, usually my office. Im a programmer by trade and usually listen to the radio in on my computer. For some reason i thought I had left the radio on and kept hearing music...ive done it a million times before. I felt uneasy as if someone was in my house (i live alone), thinking it was just my own paranoia i just disregarded it. At one point i got up and went through a door opposite my bedroom door...thing is in reality there is no door there, its a window. But it seemed quite natural...Anyway i laid down on the ground outside this door which seemed to be a balcony of sorts...I kept hearing noises...i then rolled a few times got up and closed the door and then closed my bedroom door to get pitch darkness. I laid back down and i could swear that my eyes were open and i was looking at my pillow. I kept hearing noises and felt very uneasy. I heard my printer printing things over and over again...i started getting scared, not knowing what the hell was going on, but didn’t want to get up to check...u know what i mean?!!?!! I opened my eyes again and look at my pillow...i was hearing voices from my office in which again i attributed to my computer. Finally getting sick of it and wanting to shut the computer off I got up...But i really got up and realized that I had not only been asleep that the radio was not on. It kind of freaked me out. ::dream end I woke up only to come in here and write on this forum and look and analyze some of the dreams I have had over the course of the last few nights...last i was driving a lamborginie and was with a bunch of friends...one of them tried to steal it...long story short that dream made me wake up in a cold sweat....it was filled with violence, anger, loss and desperation... I cant continue this, i feel in the next few weeks these dreams will turn into full fledge night terrors again causing me to relapse of my insomnia. At this point I cant really smoke so time to talk about it and see what the hell is going on! ANY help would be appreciated. Thanks for your time and input.

[JJA79]

It sounds like either your imagination is really strong or your waking life is effecting your dreams. I'm not very good with LD's but for some reason i have the ability to control my dreams without being lucid. My dream self concentrates and i see things stop and i am able to change the dream but I'm not sure how that works maybe other members could help you with your dreams.

[d384]

Hey thanks JA... Vivid imagination, yeah for sure, i wont disagree with you there. Nor what you said about my waking life. Even though I have recently found a new job in my field, I had been laid off for a year and there are some anxieties so I am sure they could be a great factor to all this. But I have found that even in situations where I am not under much stress my dreams are still pretty overpowering. I dont watch much tv so I guess i will just treat them as home movies. ;o} some of them are pretty cool and hey guess what, Im the star! lol You actually prob have a better understanding of LD's than I...Maybe other members can but it was nice of you to answer my post as most of them either dont care to even take a stab at it or even care! maybe they are just as lost as me...all good...I appreciate your respnse bro! Thx!

[Hijo de la Luna]

k im new to this site and wanted to share to try to get some feedback on whats going on with my unconscious mind. i swear i feel that sometimes I astral project myself. I feel like I did when i was a kid as well as an adult...is it for real or is my imagination so strong that its causing this confusion in my brain. over the course of my life I have had some wicked dreams. Turned into night terrors about 7-8 years ago. I stopped sleeping and developed severe insomnia. Im very chemical sensitive so when the doc prescribed sleeping pills, not only didn’t it work but the next day made me feel super angry. So i stopped the pills. He offered a sleep study in which I passed up. Before this time I hadn't been smoking marijuana, but started ir up only to one help me fall asleep and 2 stop my dreaming. Needless to say it worked like a charm. After a long time this not only became expensive, but i noticed I didn’t remember my dreams as if I never dreamed anymore. I know everybody dreams but couldn’t remember them. Well i stopped smoking a few months back and at first everything was fine. Then i noticed I was dreaming again or actually i should say remembering. These dreams were pretty vivid. Lots of stress in my life right now and over the course of the last 2 weeks...ive returned to my old dreaming patterns. Extremely vivid dreams, from very joyous to down right terrifying. Tonight’s really cut the cake tho...and I needed to share it with someone. I wasn’t asleep long and truth be told literally 45 mins. I didn’t even think i was a sleep and if not i need to know what was going on. the dream:: i usually sleep with at least 1 light in the house, usually my office. Im a programmer by trade and usually listen to the radio in on my computer. For some reason i thought I had left the radio on and kept hearing music...ive done it a million times before. I felt uneasy as if someone was in my house (i live alone), thinking it was just my own paranoia i just disregarded it. At one point i got up and went through a door opposite my bedroom door...thing is in reality there is no door there, its a window. But it seemed quite natural...Anyway i laid down on the ground outside this door which seemed to be a balcony of sorts...I kept hearing noises...i then rolled a few times got up and closed the door and then closed my bedroom door to get pitch darkness. I laid back down and i could swear that my eyes were open and i was looking at my pillow. I kept hearing noises and felt very uneasy. I heard my printer printing things over and over again...i started getting scared, not knowing what the hell was going on, but didn’t want to get up to check...u know what i mean?!!?!! I opened my eyes again and look at my pillow...i was hearing voices from my office in which again i attributed to my computer. Finally getting sick of it and wanting to shut the computer off I got up...But i really got up and realized that I had not only been asleep that the radio was not on. It kind of freaked me out. ::dream end I woke up only to come in here and write on this forum and look and analyze some of the dreams I have had over the course of the last few nights...last i was driving a lamborginie and was with a bunch of friends...one of them tried to steal it...long story short that dream made me wake up in a cold sweat....it was filled with violence, anger, loss and desperation... I cant continue this, i feel in the next few weeks these dreams will turn into full fledge night terrors again causing me to relapse of my insomnia. At this point I cant really smoke so time to talk about it and see what the hell is going on! ANY help would be appreciated. Thanks for your time and input. The first step is acceptance. Accept who you are where you are. To the degree you can accept yourself as you are is the degree of peace you will feel. Make the choice. BE. Follow your bliss. You are the only thing that matters. If you can help yourself then you can help others. Blessed Be