I don't know what to think about what I saw today. I feel partially disturbed, but at the same time I am not surprised, as it's something I've been expecting. My neighbor, the only neighbor I have ever liked, was carried away in a body bag earlier today... He was an older fellow and I've noticed over the past two years that we've lived here that his health has been in steady decline. He used to be outside everyday, feeding his cats, but over time he started using a cane and I saw him outside much less than I used to. I knew any day I'd be seeing something like this. It still felt abrubt, though. His poor cats are outside right now, standing by the door, waiting to be let in... :/
He came over a couple of weeks ago asking for a ride to get some cat food. We gave him the rest of ours from the cat that finally got smart and deserted us. He lived alone and I wish I had done more neighborly things for him. Many of my needy and greedy neighbors took advantage of his charitable nature. He gave them money, let them use his car, was always willing to help them out, but we could never accept his help. Not that we're better than anyone, we're mostly just couldn't bring ourselves to ask for anything if it isn't family. We also really just don't talk to our neighbors much, we're shelter bugs... He had offered a few times and told us that if we ever needed anything, to let us know and we were grateful to have him as a neighbor. I even wrote a story based off of him for my creative writing class last semester.
I just hope he was happy... I wish I had gotten to know him better, but I think he just liked the fact that we were quiet and weren't trouble for him. Except a few nights when we fought, which surely he heard but didn't say anything. Oh and my 21st birthday... that was the only time he ever came over to complain. Even then, he was super nice about asking us to turn down the music. I was so drunk, but I remember him wishing me a happy b-day. He came back later I guess because we had turned it back up, but he was still really nice about it. I don't even remember the second time...
I can't get that image out of my head though. RIP Bob.
EDIT: I've been typing all day, so excuse the horrible grammar. I don't have time to edit this post. Back to my paper... :/