I fell Inlove with someone that can't and wont love me back....

Sex is just sex... (I get that but I had feeling long before this started..)

I feel like my heart is breaking.

I know better... and I'll keep the fasacade up...
it's not hard after that travisty I one called a relastionship ended...

My DG said that I had to love him....
that it will play out as I expect..
and things will remain in my heart as they should..

I don't want it to play out like I expect... I think my life would fall apart..
(my little heart couldn't take it)

he's going to leave for Monteal
I'm going to work... and hang out with friends and get drunk (alcohol my sweet lover)

my hearts going to break...

He's the only man he's ever made my knee's go weak..
and Made my heart race and skip beats..

It'll never be what I want it to be.... *sigh*
And i'll keep my game going so long as I get to be that close to him.
and keep my emotional attactment to him, hidden..

what does it matter anyways.

Some one I need a drink... lots and lots of drinks....