Thread: First LD since joining!

I know I'm pretty quiet on these forums since joining, mostly because I researched the heck outta this and determined not to say anything till I had something to say, if that makes sense. Well technically I had a false awakening a few days ago, discovered via RC, but woke for real when I discovered I was dreaming, so I don't count that.

So tonight, just my 4 year old son and me in the house, me in my chair watching a movie, him playing computer games. I must have dozed off ... I woke at the dot of 9, and last time I saw the clock it was 8, and I was awake after that, so I assume I was asleep for about 30-40 minutes. My son looked over and said "Awake already? Good nap?" and I laughed. He was ok for the half-hour I napped, he's nearly 5 and was probably excited for the time alone Very much his daddy's child, needs his alone time. Anyway, onto the dream

I was in my mother in law's house (only it isn't in real life, but I have dreamed the SAME house as 'hers' before with all the inlaws in it). I was in the living room, it was night. Watching TV. It was some kind of holiday dinner. In waking life, I'm currently a bit on the outs with the inlaws over a major disagreement, and the worst of all of it is my sis in law who got married last month. In the dream, her new hubby was letting me play with his 2 cats with this toy. These cats loved each other, and he was actually speaking to me and being nice, which was a nice change from the cold shoulder. I got up to walk into the dining room and my youngest sister in law (not the one who just got married, the other one, my age) spoke to me and I stopped short. I thought "She's not speaking to me ... this isn't my mother in law's house ... I'm dreaming!" And immediately it started to go black and fall away. Remarkably, I remembered to rub my hands!

I woke in my chair, but somethings weren't right. I did an RC (finger through palm, I do it every time I wake up) and it failed, so I got excited. I looked around. I was in front of my computer, my son was on the other computer playing casually, and there was a naked headless child, about my son's age, on the arm of my chair. Headless wasn't so wierd, since the whole dream was VERY low quality at this point. I closed my eyes and told it to shape up, somehow ... I mean I touched my dream eyelashes and wanted claritity in vision, and it worked. Things were way more stable after that. Anyway, I looked at headless baby. I think it was male, but no way to know for sure. I told it to go away, it wasn't mine, not my son, and I didn't want it. I was surprised when it worked. It started to shrink and change form, and became a small headless robot, about knee-high. I came up out of my chair and charged it, snarling at it to MELT! Melt away, it's not welcome here! I got on all fours and put my face close to it, very intimidating, and watched as it melted into the hardwood floor, red paint from its surface on the floor. Satisfied and a little power-hungry, I went exploring.

I walked through a room that didn't seem fully formed yet into the kitchen. Black and white floor, small low bench trying to block the kitchen doorway (which was behind a red curtain) with items on it ... silent radio, some things I've forgotten. I looked down and saw a white princess phone with the talk part off the hook. I said "Remember to make a note of that, must mean something" and replaced it, smiling. I wandered into the bathroom, tiny, turned and saw that my computer had magically appeared behind me, dark and silent, what had been a hall was now a small room. I turned again, and there was L.

She looked different, hair longer, thicker, and less red ... slightly plumper, harder/edgier, but still beautiful. I was happy to see her, I'd been thinking of her. We went and sat down. We sat in 2 office-type computer chairs, computers in front of us, on ... 3 of them. We ignored them. I remember thinking there were no consequences, I shifted the skirt of my black nightgown I was wearing (very sexy in the dream!) and pulled it up to my waist as I got onto the floor. I looked up at her and very matter of factly said, "Let's f***." She looked incredulous, and said very scathingly, "I'd never want to f*** YOU!" (I should probably for the sake of saving people trying to interpret that we ARE lovers in waking life, as well as very close friends. Sorry if that's TMI.) I was stunned. Not hurt in the least, stunned. I asked her why not. She said very simply, "I'm not allowed to (something, forget the last word ... service?)," with a toss of her very nice hair. I asked her urgently what she wasn't allowed to do, there must be SOMEthing we could do. I was quite adamant, and she beagn to change. Her eyes went from green to brown, and I commented in awe that they looked JUST like Julia Roberts' eyes. She smiled, satisfied, and leaned back, and as she did, they were green again, like normal. I asked again what she couldn't do, "Tell the TRUTH!" I demanded. She sneered, "Because you'll know if I'm lying?" I said, "Well I WILL know, it's MY dream!" and she nodded like I'd just figured something out, and said, "We're all linked here, darling," with a very sly grin. I began to fear her slightly. She was out of my control and it was frightening. I asked again what she couldn't do, trying to take back control of the situation, and she smiled, open-mouthed. Something was in her mouth. I looked closer. It looked like a large, round, flat jewel (mother of pearl, abalone, opal, something) and reminded me in a very creepy way of the moon. I got very scared, pulled my gown down and scrambled back, insisting that she STOP IT. She did, closing her mouth and smiling.

Then I woke up VERY suddenly, in my chair, movie in the background, baby talking. Did an RC, proved I was awake, and immediately began noting down details as I recalled them, piecing it back together.

One thing I don't understand is the power-hungriness and the hostility, and also the exchange with L which would never happen in real life. I'm very much not like that, always very laid back, logical, compassionate, not trying to control situations unless I need to, never power-hungry at all, and almost NEVER hostile unless I'm provoked. I felt a sort of corruption rising up in me after the robot, I was GOD, an childish, jealous, controlling god who felt that nothing could touch her. It was very odd, I'm never really like this, so why the sudden personality transplant in the dream? I am excited that I didn't get scared and try to wake myself though, so that's something

Thanks in advance for any advice or explanations or ideas on that!
Rainah

P.S. For those of you who read my intro and read that I'm married, yes my husband knows about L, has met her, likes her and is ok with my relationship with her and no he doesn't get to watch. (Sorry to be blunt, but whenever anyone finds out, as it was pertinent in this case, someone always asks that!)