First Lucid Dream! (wohoooo!) But no emotions..

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Some days ago I had my first lucid dream! Actually two in a row! (almost three if I didn't think that breathing through my nose while pinching it was not enough to prove I was dreaming..) Though my first experience becoming lucid was very different from what I've always read about it. So, I would like to share it with you and maybe someone can give me some sort of explanation. I'm not going to tell all of my dream before I became lucid, but the important thing, that made me realize I was dreaming was that I had gone back in time and I had to retake all the university exams that I passed.. I was soooo frustrated and sad and annoyed. I couldn't understand why it was happening. Later I was in my friend's car and I couldn't accept that situation anymore, so I did a RC.. It worked! The "problem" is: no instant excitement, no euphoria or anything.. I read everywhere that beginners usually get caught in their emotions and snap out of the dream. While I was like "Ok, I'm dreaming. Cool." I just felt slightly happy. I remember telling myself, the moment when I became lucid "Remember to calm down. Control your emotions." But in the second dream in which I became lucid, I didn't even had that intent. Almost no emotions flew into me. The next thing I did was telling my friend to stop the car. My ONLY purpose was to explore the dream. I had to do something. Something extraordinary. It's like if I was acting like possessed by euphoria but inside I couldn't really feel it. I felt the urgent need to do something before the dream collapsed. Since my friend would not listen to me, I just opened the car's door and I threw myself out! I started rolling so fast in the street and, then, I bounced upward, positioned in away that I found myself running frantically. I stopped.. and I thought that, some days before, I told myself that the first thing I would have done when I became lucid would be to go to the moon.. so I leaped towards the sky aiming for the moon. After some time, while I was on my way to the moon, the dream disappeared. I remember thinking "What?! Please wait wait wait wait.." I am quite a sensible person and I'm always trying to control my emotions, most of all before they become overwhelming. Sometimes though I reach the exact opposite and I preclude all my emotions from touching me. That's because of the fear of what I could feel if I let them in.. Is it possible that this attitude was also present in my dream? To me it was so easy to just "forget" that I could actually feel something.. I just went on lucid dreaming without thinking about the feelings that could have arose, my only thought was "Do something! Do something! Do something!" Thanks for your time.

[Astaroth]

Well this happenes to me a lot. It tends to occur (at least for me) when my awareness is low, so I'd act as there's a plot for me (like in every other dream), even though I know I am dreaming. I mean, you know you're dreaming, but it's not like when your awareness is high and the emotions are completely different, that reality seems more 'real' and so do your emotions.

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Thanks for replying Astaroth (hope wrote that right..). You know, I thought of that too, but the fact is that I was actually directing my actions. I even remembered what I wanted to do in the first lucid dream. Surely, my awareness wasn't the highest, but I really knew I was dreaming and I wanted to make that experience extraordinary. Hope that makes sense.. Maybe as you said, hopefully, when I will reach a higher level of awareness I'll be able to feel something, but I'm still confused about how I could manage to think and act in a quite radical way, out of the dream plot (when my friend didn't listen to me I just thought I'd throw myself out of the car.. I even remember thinking "let's see what happens if I die.." but I didn't) without feeling much, which is very central in lucidity, I guess.

[NowAwake]

Some days ago I had my first lucid dream! Actually two in a row! (almost three if I didn't think that breathing through my nose while pinching it was not enough to prove I was dreaming..) Though my first experience becoming lucid was very different from what I've always read about it. So, I would like to share it with you and maybe someone can give me some sort of explanation. I'm not going to tell all of my dream before I became lucid, but the important thing, that made me realize I was dreaming was that I had gone back in time and I had to retake all the university exams that I passed.. I was soooo frustrated and sad and annoyed. I couldn't understand why it was happening. Later I was in my friend's car and I couldn't accept that situation anymore, so I did a RC.. It worked! The "problem" is: no instant excitement, no euphoria or anything.. I read everywhere that beginners usually get caught in their emotions and snap out of the dream. While I was like "Ok, I'm dreaming. Cool." I just felt slightly happy. I remember telling myself, the moment when I became lucid "Remember to calm down. Control your emotions." But in the second dream in which I became lucid, I didn't even had that intent. Almost no emotions flew into me. The next thing I did was telling my friend to stop the car. My ONLY purpose was to explore the dream. I had to do something. Something extraordinary. It's like if I was acting like possessed by euphoria but inside I couldn't really feel it. I felt the urgent need to do something before the dream collapsed. Since my friend would not listen to me, I just opened the car's door and I threw myself out! I started rolling so fast in the street and, then, I bounced upward, positioned in away that I found myself running frantically. I stopped.. and I thought that, some days before, I told myself that the first thing I would have done when I became lucid would be to go to the moon.. so I leaped towards the sky aiming for the moon. After some time, while I was on my way to the moon, the dream disappeared. I remember thinking "What?! Please wait wait wait wait.." I am quite a sensible person and I'm always trying to control my emotions, most of all before they become overwhelming. Sometimes though I reach the exact opposite and I preclude all my emotions from touching me. That's because of the fear of what I could feel if I let them in.. Is it possible that this attitude was also present in my dream? To me it was so easy to just "forget" that I could actually feel something.. I just went on lucid dreaming without thinking about the feelings that could have arose, my only thought was "Do something! Do something! Do something!" Thanks for your time. dont worry if you dont feel emotional or excited, that means you have your feelings undercontrol, dont count it as a negative but infact its a good thing, you are already one step ahead from a novice lucid dreamer, because the first step they have to learn is indeed not get excited (and its hard). next time when you get lucid say it out loud "increase lucidity" or "increase awareness", cammanding the dream with instructions is an excellent way of controlling. when you feel your dream fading try "spinning technique" by stephen labarge

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Thank you for your advice NowAwake, I'll try that!