Two lucid dreams and a false awakening last night!

**Truthbearer** · 03-05-2004 08:39 PM

Last night, well actually today in the morning, I decided to try another WILD. I set my alarm clock, woke up, stayed up for 30 minutes and decided to proceed. I made my body fall asleep really fast, but I could enter the dream world myself. I just laid there, trapped in my own mind, for about 15 minutes concentrating on my breathing. Then, consciously I started to ask myself: "What do I see?" I started to focus on the darkness and saw nothing, so I decided to run by some images and stories. This was a conscious desicion, and I imagined an object, whatever came to mind first, and then a whole sequence followed about it. I kept doing this and it caused me to finally feel like my whole self was asleep. I didn't feel my body anymore, I just felt a vibrating sensation.

I stopped feeling like I was breathing, which panicked me at first, then I decided to leave it live that assuming I was. The problem is, eventhough I tried to remain as calm as posible I woke up, or left this stage. I think it was mainly because I was unable to unfocus on my breathing and my hands were on my stomach which made it even harder for me not to focus on it.

The weird part is during this whole process I was completely drawn to myself, as I should be, but with my body asleep an all I could hear everything that was going on around me(cars, the neighbors, etc) I couldn't eliminate those sounds.

After trying a couple more times, unsuccesfully, I just decided to sleep normally. I was pretty sure i was to become lucid anyway, and I was right. The thing is the WILD I do is kind of a MILD as well. All the time I keep repeating to myself "I am awake", and this desire and drive of becoming lucid doesn't just go away. I didn't begin the dream lucid, but I realized I was dreaming.

I didn't write it down when I woke up(I was late for work) but here's what I remember from both of them:

I was in my bed, after waking up(apparently), and I look at my alarm clock. It reads 12:46. I think to myself, that can't be I am supposed to be at work at 11. This is obviously nothing that hasn't happened to me in real life(not waking up on time), but it made me think that I was dreaming. As soon as I realized that it all became more vivid. I got up and, concentrating the whole time because it was fading away, I went to the living room and got in front of the mirror (which was once there, but now isn't anymore). I looked weird; like myself but all square. All my features where looking like the weren't their usual circular or oval way, but they were more like a box. Not many curves. Also I had this really gay white shirt on, which was too small from me and showed all my abs. I turned around and decided to do what I didn't last time, fly. I ran to the door opened it, and thought about how I hadn't opened these other two buzzer doors I need to get outside. Then I said, fuck that! I don't need to. I just ran, charging, towards then and pushed them open. When I opened the second one, the dream faded. I woke up.

Or so I thought.... I don't really remember much of the second dream, I know it was longer but don't remember most of the details. I remember getting up somewhere I have never been before, and thinking this is a dream... Something made me think otherwise, but after a while I just shouted "Yes it is", and it became more vivid again, which proved my theory. I remember also wanting to fly and I think I did a bit but the memory is all faded. If I remember more of the details I'll post them here.

I can't wait for tomorrow morning, I shall try again....