Thread: Frightening SP, not my norm...

I'm no stranger to SP, in fact it's one of my favorite aspects of the whole LD experience. I like the tingling sensation and being able to feel myself move without moving. It's a thrill to me. But this morning, I had SP, and it got scary.

I went to sleep watching Buffy on an internet stream, and when I woke up from the dream that I was having (I think I was drowning in it), I was in full SP mode. At first it was cool; I moved my dream body some, got the tingles all over. It's interesting when you can see your dream body and your physical body at the same time! I even got up and walked around some (does that qualify as a WILD?), although every once in a while my sight would revert to my lying-in-bed perspective. (I have an issue with sleeping with my eyes open!) I kept doing the nose-breathing RC, and remained lucid for about fifteen minutes. After a while, though, I felt something in my throat. It felt ... chunky. I wasn't having trouble breathing, but it started to freak me out. Whatever it was, there was more of it all the time. I got up (OBE - lucid WILD, whatever) and reached into my mouth and pulled it out. It was gross, but I still wasn't sure what it was, and after a minute, it came back. Back in my body, lying on my back, still in SP, I was afraid that I had vomitted and was going to suffocate on it. And here I am paralyzed. That's when I pannicked. I started trying to move, to turn my head, lift my arms, anything. My left hand was resting under my wireless keyboard, near the arrow keys for Buffy volume control. I thought that maybe if I could change the volume, it might be enough sensory input to snap me out of it. It was turned up pretty high, and my thumb was resting on the down arrow, so I started trying to turn it down. It took a minute to keep from just moving my dream thumb - I had to seperate the sensations. Finaly, I got my thumb to twitch, ever so slightly, but not enough to actually push the button. I focused everything I had on pressing that key, but I couldn't do more than budge it, for all I was worth. I tried to scream out, to spit, anything. I could feel that stuff filling up my throat, my whole mouth. I resisted the urge to "step out" again, because I was afraid it would give me a false sense of security in a possibly perrilous situation. So I struggled, and fretted, and felt like crying for about five more minutes, though it seemed like an eternity. Finaly, I felt something starting to change, I can't really describe what it felt like, but I could tell I was comming out of it. A little more struggling, and I finaly moved again. I took a deep breath, through an unbelievably dry throat. So dry, it felt almost like something was in it. I've never bee so relieved to be parched. Oh yeah, I also have a problem with sleeping with my mouth wide open. So, I got a drink of water, and watched some more Buffy.

It was terrifying, but I have to say, I still love SP; I can't wait for my next bout! What do you think, am I crazy? And does what I mentioned before count as WILD?