I have three huge problems that have been slowing down my LDing efforts. My first one, mind wandering. I need to mind to wander to fall asleep, which pretty much limits MILD, VILD, FILD, Auto-Suggestion, and everything else except POSSIBLY WILD. My second one, lack of control. It took me I think until my 19th lucid dream to summon something as basic as a Mario 64 Wing Cap (and I couldn't even fly with it!!!. And the third one, was the vividness of my dreams. All of my dreams are blurry, unclear, dulled down, lack emotions, and lack full feeling of touching things. I tried 200mg of B6 in the morning before I fell back asleep, but all that did was nearly kill my recall for the rest of the night. Well, last night, I finally had a vivid dream, only a tiny bit less realistic than real life.
(Lucid part is in blue).
I jumped in an airplane to take me to highschool. This is a recurring dream, probably because school is going to start soon. It did its usual round, swerving in the skies and nearly hitting my legs on cars. I was going into highschool and I saw my brother. He said he needed to stay at my school until 11 AM when my mom would pick him up. I was in a huge lineup for some reason, and I saw this kid with a HUGE backpack run really fast across the hallway.
The dream scene switched and I was outside in darkness, in a mostly empty field. There was a crowded road behind me. I walked a little, and then half-spontanously realized I was dreaming. I stared straight ahead into the (like usual) unvivid darkness, and I saw some lights (unlike before). I tried to concentrate on making this dream more vivid. Even though verbal commands never really worked for me, I yelled "INCREASE CLARITY" which was the first thing that popped into my head. My vision blurred, so all I saw was black and faded red and yellow. (The lights were red and yellow). But then.... it went back to normal except more vivid then before! It still had a long way to go before reaching life like, but it was still pretty amazing. I tried to look at my hands, because of the thread by moonbeam about why her hands looked so screwed up in her dream. My hands looked completly normal, except when I looked at them my entire view changed into letterbox format (like the anime-part of the south park episode Good Times With Weapons). I looked away, and it was back to normal vision. I tried it one more time, and again it was letterbox format.
Again, the dreamscene changed, this time to my house. Out of total curiosity (no, I do not know why I thought this way) I wanted to try to slap my dad and see what he would do, since it was a dream. I went to the couch, and my brother was both on the left side and the right side! I figured my dad was supposed to be the one on the left, so I tried to imagine my brother turning into my dad. It didn't really work. Luckily, my dad (well he sort of looked like my dad) walked through the door, so I slapped him (I still don't know why I'd do something like that). He spit a bit but looked almost as if nothing happened. Then, I was suddenly up the stairs. I ran down, and I actually felt wind, and the stairs felt nearly real (although I coudln't feel my feet touch the stairs). It was cool. I was walking to the hallway when I woke up.
So I was pretty happy when I woke up. Of course, it was early so I went back to sleep....
All of this came after my failed FILD/WILD attempt.
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