Okay. So, I woke up at 5:15 in the morning in order to hone my WILDing skills. I went back to bed at about 5:30. So, I was concentrating. Then, my thoughts started wandering for some reason. The next thing I know, my hand jerks up suddenly. I think to myself, "Why would I suddenly jerk my hand up while doing a WILD?" Then, I realized that, after about 15 minutes of WILDing, I had fallen asleep. Once I started to dream, I somehow realized that the WILD had failed. I said to myself, in the dream, "Crap! Why did I fall asleep? Better wake up." Then, I woke up. I think that this is strange because I was obviously at least half-lucid, because I realized that I was dreaming, but I was not lucid enough to try to take advantage of the fact that I was lucid, if that makes sense. Weird.
So anyways, I woke up and took off my blindfold/towel. The fact that that was still on my eyes let me know that I was dreaming. I sighed to myself and tried to fall asleep again. After about five minutes, I fell asleep. So, I had a dream, but I won't go into details on this one. Then, I was in a cafeteria scene. I was walking around, observing the action. There were two sections to the cafeteria. Then, I sat down next to Ethan, who was sitting at a tow-person table by himself, and started talking to him (I forgot what I was talking about). During this time, I think I am semi-aware that I am dreaming. Suddenly, I take the logical leap, and realize that I am dreaming. Perhaps I had seen this cafeteria in a previous dream, before trying to WILD. Then, I did a hasty reality check (the nose check), which tells me that I am dreaming. I yell out, as lound as I can, "I'm dreaming! I'm dreaming!" Suddenly, I get a strange rush of excitement to my head. The dream-scene starts fading. It becomes dark, but some details indicate that the room that I am in is my bedroom. Well, to be precise, my old bedrom. Somewhere doing this time, I try spinning, but I feel as though I am wading through honey (it is hard to spin). I try to rub my hands, and I feel the warmth of my hands beng rubbed together, but I cannot feel my hands touching! I try yelling "Lucidity Times 1000!", but I have lost my voice...
Suddenly, I wake up to find myself in my bed. Thinking back t this incident, I realized that this was not my real bed; this was a false awakening. I groan, and try to "go to sleep" again (although I am already asleep in real life). I immediately fin myself to be asleep. I am in the same cafeteria. I shout, "I'm dreaming!" again. I do another reality check. Suddenly, I fin myself in my real bed. It is about 6:45 when I start to write this down on a piece of paper.
So, after I wrote this down, I went back to sleep. I was drifting in and out of sleep, due to the fact that I took off my earplugs and that it was already morning. When I get out of bed, I decide that I will try to WILD tommorow as well, but this time, I will go to sleep earlier and wake up earlier.
So, I have several questions. How many lucid dreams did I have? I became lucid two (or three, if you count the failed WILD) times during this night.
What can I do to not wake up next time? In retrospect, I should have remained calm, and not shouted "I'm dreaming" as loud as I could.
Why was I unable to stabilize the dream?
What can I do to get a better WILD next time, ie. to not fall asleep?
Thanks for your time.
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