3-3-08 - Normally when I lucid dream, I try to have sex with the first girl around me, because I know there are no consequences to my actions and nothing/nobody is real. If they are willing or not, it's all random. A good portion of the time when I end up attempting to have sex with somebody I have to fight myself from waking up. There have been times though when I made it all the way through. This dream was probably the most vivid..as far as realizing I'm dreaming and being able to stare at an object and details were VERY clear and sharp. It was groundbreaking for me for a few reasons. One being that the way I asked girls IF they wanted to have sex with me...the other being that the 2nd part of my dream I was trying to determine if I was lucid dreaming or not....and finally the quick reaction I had at the end of the dream as I was fading out. (waking up). (Kinda graphic, but I watered it down)



I realized I was lucid dreaming. I was at the mall and decided I was going to have sex with somebody. I didn't want to do it in the middle of a crowd. I grabbed this teenage girl's hand from her mom. The second I started to get sexual with her, she turned into a young child. I immediately freaked out and bailed. I felt disturbed, and continued walking around. Even though, I knew this was a dream, I decided to go about finding somebody to have sex with in a civil manner. There were 4 girls working at a store at the mall (I think it was like Starbucks) I hesitated, but then asked them if any of them would like to have sex with me. They said "no".

I was at Christina's house. I was unaware if I was lucid dreaming or not. I tried to mildly "fade out" to see if I was dreaming, but I was still unsure. I wanted to have sex with her sister, but I wasn't going to pursue anything if I wasn't sure I was lucid dreaming. I wondered why Christina was talking to me, because a few days earlier she said she never wanted to talk to me again and hated me. Some of her family and I put in a movie by Harmony Korine/Gus Vant Saint and there were young men doing sexual things to each other. I didn't realize this is what this movie was going to have in it. So we shut it off, but Christina's dad thought it was funny and he wanted to grab more of the family and start the film over. Somehow it started from the middle and it wasn't that bad. We were on the couch watching the movie and I started "fading out" (waking up.) I realized at that moment it was a dream. I quickly tried to punch Christina in the face as I was "fading out" but I don't think I connected.