Thread: Freaky LD teaching me lessons...

[FIRST of all, sorry if i posted in the wrong section... I'm quite new here.. joined today after THIS experience... so any mods feel free to move this elsewhere if it doesnt belong.] So anyway. if you DONT like reading, please, I suggest turn away now because you're about to get a enormous wave of text (lol) . Continuing on then, I had the most extensive dream ever, and it was the freakiest i've ever experienced as well. IMMEDIATELY after the dream i wrote a 2200+ word log. yes. 2200+ words. Wild Adventures and Lessons to be learned. Have fun! heh. (if you are going to join me in my adventures ) And also, i put parenthesizes around the text where i try to Explain something (outside of the dream). I hope you can learn something interesting from my experiences as well. Enjoy.

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(An innocent start to the LD, non LD at this stage.)
Wow I'm so pro in Gunz (An internet game). So many reloading glitches. Something isnt right! The players are not supposed to be able to do that. Wait, I'm also a character in the game! Damn! I got shot. Dying now...

I Wake up in my dorm. Ah, it’s just a dream...
Something is awry. Lights are out in hallway. (I'm not a LDer of any sorts and I don't force them, they just happen every couple of weeks normally to me so i don't really know to do the 'light checks' and other methods to become lucid.)
I go out, neon lights it’s like a future club. Doors are made of glass. Walked around. This world is cool. I live in it for about 2 or more days. I made plenty of little friends from here and there…

I don’t know the times, but i did many things i cannot recall (and i'm not going to fill this up with false memories so i won't ). But i do remember going to sleep and waking up in the same bed every day. It was in an old abandoned office building (what has the world come to now?) One day I notice an abandoned alleyway... Nice. Go in and look around.
suddenly someone shoots me. (Why do i always have to die).

wake up in dorm. oh its just a dream...
lights are out in hallway. Everything is deadly silent. I walk outside. Everything is glowy neon. I enter a store that happens to be there. Someone starts a fight. I leave and walk into a neighboring restaurant. My family members are there making soup from water and other ingredients. They drink it. I watch someone pour water into a pot and it magically turns into a soup. It smells delicious. More people come in. These are strangers now. I turn around and i spill soup on myself. The soup burns me.

Wake up in dorm. Oh its just a dream...
Lights are out in the hallway. Everything looks neon. There is a hole in the floor. it must be a dungeon. (I wonder why i assume dark dank places are dungeons...) I go into the basement. There is an enormous dog that will eat me. It is roughly 20 times my size. Turns out it was just large but cuddly. I play with him for a couple minutes. I teach him new tricks too…
Then, I go into the next room. There is a large rat. It’s ugly and it’s definitely going to eat me this time. It sinks its teeth into my body....

wake up in dorm. oh its just a dream...
lights are out in the hallway. everything looks neon. there is a hole in the floor. It must be a subway station! I go in it. Everything is empty. There are no trains anywhere. It is dark and there is water dripping.
I explore a little. There is nothing else to see. I want to get out of here.

wake up in dorm. oh its just a dream... (if you're wondering, yes I THINK that every time, but after i become 'semi lucid' i always fall back into the dream and it just whisks me into the plot.)
something is awry. lights are out in hallway. I go out, lights are out everywhere. It is nighttime and the streetlights are gone as well.
I go into a store. there’s lots of gum in the shelves... but i am tired. I sleep in store for 3 hours because there is a bed there for no reason...

I wake up in store. Something is awry. The lights are out. The storekeepers ask me if i want to buy something because they were closing up. i said yes I’ll take some gum. they said u want more stuff? i said I’ll look around
.. there is a dungeon in the back of the store... I freaked.

I wake up in store. something is awry. The lights are out. The storekeepers ask me if I want to buy something. I choose the gum. What is this gum? I take a roll of bubble tape. Then another container. This gum has vitamin C + gum in shapes of animals... it’s not bubble tape. OK I’ll buy MORE stuff since the storekeeper asked again. I walk around. There’s a tunnel in the store that looks like a dungeon.

***DREAM DEJA VU! Lucid dream starts. I am excited.***
i turn around to gather info to myself since now i know that i am lucid. The storekeepers bash my head in with clubs. ouch. I began to black out. (Is it possible that while you are lucid, your DC's attack you to death? ahh)

wake up in dorm. oh its just a dream...
something is awry. The lights are out in the hallway. There’s neon things everywhere in the streets. My doors are made of glass. I’m realize that I am still dreaming. I walk outside. Let's do what I want! I take a leak on the stairs because I hear people fighting upstairs. (Obviously my mind was still a tad bit random...) I hope they slip when they come down... but someone comes down with a gun. They shoot me. I’m dying. (Did i do something wrong? lol.)
I decide to wake up now. I don't want to die in a dream.

wake up in dorm. oh its just a dream... (Yes i am STILL thinking that).
The lights are on in the room... Finally. But something doesn’t feel right. The air around me feels like fluid, with some sort of watery texture. I remember this from my first LD. i know i'm still dreaming. I walk outside. The walls are glass. i can see outside into the neon streets. I walk up some large stairs inside my dorm hall. Someone is starting a fight behind a large set of locked doors. There are bystanders peering in from the outside. I get an idea. i use a magic force in my hands and... think... and I DON’T open the door after all. i just walk past and smile because nothing will happen out of this. I can’t just use powers so publicly! i walk into a room. A screaming sound...

wake up in dorm. oh its just a dream...
lights are on in the room. (the blankets on me are ALWAYS in the same order when i wake up. they are folded twice over, on top of me). lights are on in the halls. I walk outside. it is cold. I walk up the same stairs. I see the shadow of someone getting dressed. I head into their room. (At this point, nasty things happened for over 30 min in dreamland time so i will exclude the info ) People are so light these days it’s as if they were made out of paper. I look into the mirror. That is my real reflection!
this dream is awesomely real. I realize i just said it was a dream. now its gonna end.. Lucid dreams always end when I acknowledge them. Aw.

wake up in dorm. aw why did my dream end.
**wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm.wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. **
COOL. i didn’t know i could drag out my 'wake up in dorms'. my dream definitely is still on and now i can do what i want! best lucid dream ever.
I walk around. I try to turn a piece of paper into a gun... it doesn’t work. damn. I roll it up. now it looks like a bat. I try to turn it into a bat. it turns into a metal baton with electricity (like a taser). good enough. Actually, even better.I go out to use it on someone now. (How morbid) I climb up some stairs. someone is coming down. ZAP! there is a bright light and I am blinded.


wake up in dorm. ok its getting a bit freaky now. This time, I rolled out of bed like a slug. wow
its so SLOW MOTION. it feels disgusting.
**wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm.
wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. **
ok that’s a bit better. better speed here, now that i sort of 'refreshed the dream' a couple times. its still cool. oh wait...

Now I realize that I’m waking up forever only in dreamland, and not really waking up for real. Ok. I'm scared now. Let’s wake up for real.

** wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. **

i cant. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in hospital. What the hell happened? This cant be real can it? The hospital is completely empty. *sigh* now i understand why others hate dreams where u wake up over and over again. but this is too much. People usually end up with only 3-4 false awakenings... I’ve been waking up for over a hundred times... When will it end? i need to learn how to wake up for real.

I wake up in the hospital. something is awry. everything is empty. lights are out. outside there are neon lights everywhere. the walls are glass and see through. Then it occurred to me. What if the hospital is a symbolism of something happening to me in the Real world? (Like if i rolled off my bed and cracked open my head or something) what if this is how a comatose person feels? what if I’m actually in a coma now. damn! *I hear someone coming in the dorm hall's front door.(I hear this through my dream, but I am 90% sure it was real sensory info from the outside world). i wonder if that is my roommate. Save me! Wake me up. If my head is cracked open call 911!
.... no such luck. It’s someone else. No… wait… I pondered, and that means everyone who is in a coma has such nice dreams too! That is... until the point where their plug is pulled! and that means they hear EVERY WORD and know EVERY THING AROUND THEM... They only can't respond.... pulling the
plug is murder!!! i miss my family now. i wanna wake up


wake up in dorm. phew. lights are on. everything outside sounds normal. The walls are not see through. The blanket is folded on itself twice. Uh oh. i try to sit up on my bed.
**wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. ** (after i got up to a certain level, like a broken record i automatically reset to starting position and kept going up, down up down up down, resetting the action of 'sitting up' every time, every time it turns dark and the dream starts over again.)

i can’t get out of bed without restarting the dream!!! Help me. I’m terrified now.

wake up in dorm. OK. i get up. good. look around. It’s fine. I move out of my bed. I cursed at myself. I am in super slow motion again!!! I slide to the floor and it takes me many minutes…. i flatten out like a slug. It's all disgusting and weird... all slowly…. i want to wake up!!!
i slap myself. i pinch myself. I take breaths. i close my eyes and
tell myself i will now wake up. i will now wake up… I imagine the real world. (I used to think in my first few LDs that IF i was DREAMING now, and i wanted to wake up, then i'll just go to sleep in the real world and when i open my eyes, I will wake up.)

Wake up in dorm. Normalcy. I sigh. Pinching yourself doesn’t work. I know that not because the lights are on. But because every piece of furniture in the room excluding my bed is gone. They’re all gone. i freaked again. I guess much of a dream is tied to your emotions (If emotions exist inside a dream.) **wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm.
wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. (at least 30 times)**
and i finally give up.

Wake up in dorm. Something is awry. The pillow is gone. i feel around for it. the pillow is not there. But then, I feel an invisible pillow. WOW am i 'sleepwalking' in the real world and actually touching my actual pillow that i cannot see at the moment? good! this gives me hope. i can now communicate... NOT (these things keep dawning on me and i just go DOH! heh) i can’t talk while sleeping duh. I don't sleeptalk. i forgot. damn again.
im doomed for life!!! (This dream is really good at making me lose my willpower...)

**wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. wake up in dorm. **

I get onto the floor. i look at my bed. that bed is a curse. i don't like it at all. i don't wanna wake up over and over with fear anymore. i've accepted living in this alternate reality. i've been here for days. many days. perhaps even weeks. im tired of trying to wake up. im trapped.
i begin to cry.

wake up in dorm. the blankets are folded twice. the pillow is there. i get up. there is something different about the air… slow-motion watery again. (i've learned that when the air is watery, it is a sign that my dream is weakening to me.) I’m very very very scared. this has been the most amazing dream experience I’ve ever had and yet i don’t want it anymore because it's got me caged. i hate waking up the same way every time knowing that this is just a dream. how long has time passed in the real world? perhaps i HAVE been hospitalized in a coma.

i begin to pray to some sort of nothing. (I'm not even religious). i speak out loud. "What did i do wrong? I just want to wake up. i don’t like it in here anymore. I’m sorry for wanting lucid dreams so badly. I’m sorry i want power" I get down on the floor to bawl like a baby…

i wake up in dorm. The blankets are all over the place. The pillow is there. i get up. There is something different about the air. There is something refreshing as if you just ACTUALLY woke up. my computer is humming. natural sounds. finally. no more dead silence.

i thank whoever made this happen. was someone teaching me a lesson? I look at my bed and i hit it. (Lol) And I say 'u are dam cursed, get away from me'. so i get away from it. (ahah I was extremely dazed so my actions didn't make much sense for a while).
i look at the clock. 30 min's have passed. Consider REM sleep begins at least after 10 minutes. The ratio is quite astonishing. I had my 20 minutes of nap time traded in for a week or two of learning experience in a world where nature’s rules don’t apply.

To have just had my weeks of experience in a little nap. i will never underestimate the power of the subconscious and its unique time bending. Was there a lesson to be learned? By wanting this lucid power and the power to change my dreams (which I have the rights to anyway), i have trapped myself into a lucid loop. (too much of a good thing can be a bad thing... heh) But, that just the consequences i have to deal with. for now i am just glad i am finally awake. And thank goodness I drank my bladder full before i napped. it finally snapped me awake. Nature owns me .
otherwise, who knows how much longer, how much more crazy and mental i would have to get inside my dream before it released me? (Could a dream drive someone insane?)

And I wake up... to life. There are definitely lessons to be learned in dreams.
Or else what? It’s probably some higher power toying with my mind. Then THAT sucks.
The End (or is it?).

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Thanks for reading. And if there are such people out there who are into all the 'dream meaning stuff' (which i don't buy, but i love attributing dreams to signs ANYWAY) then feel free to 'decipher' my dream's meaning(s).

So many repetitions to look at... i.e. what is up with all the neon lights outside in my streets? Glass doors and walls? And I can bet this is probably one of a huge record numbers of false awakenings xD

All I can say is, my dream got smart to me and it broke down my will in the end... But all those little feelings are now tucked into the back of my mind (like dreams always dissipate). I just find it amazing. Thanks for reading through all that. I look forward to your comments (If i ever wake up from my next sleep) dun dun dun.!

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