I had such a weird dream last night.

I'm fairly new to learning how to have lucid dreams, although I've been having a lot of them but just didn't know what they are. I am fascinated by the idea and determinded to improve my lucid dreaming skills.

So, last night I fell into bed, and decided to try something. I imagined a random scenery, that of a beach. I closed my eyes and focused on that whole scene. I imagined myself running around it, my feet touching the sand..Of course, I couldn't stay entirely focused on this scene, so I ended up thinking of a scene where the sea wasn't calm at all, there were a lot of waves and rocks and it looked a bit frightening. I tried to think about the other scene more, but I guess I thought about the other one more than I had planned. So, after a bit, I fell asleep.

The dream I had started off as non-lucid. It was close to a nightmare, although for some reason, even at the start of the dream, I was thinking that this is not normal. So, I really don't know whether I was aware that I was dreaming right then. I saw that my grandfather killed himself with a gun. I was shocked, and immediately txted my boyfriend about it. I don't remember much from afterwards, but then I was in that very scene I was thinking of before going to sleep.

I was swimming into the sea, the wild one, with the waves and everything. I watched everything around me and I thought that it looked familiar. Then, I teleported or something, and I was in a cafe, with my father. It was very crowded and I was wondering what I was doing there, while thinking about the previous events. Suddenly I was forcing myself to look somewhere for reality clues. I randomly picked up the catalog from the table, and stared into it. I could see letters and everything, and I kept looking each page for clues. In the end, I think I figured it was a dream. But it was more like, I was trying to proove it to myself in the dream. I woke up right after though.

So, do you think that I was lucid the whole time, even if I wasn't in complete control of the dream? I really have no idea what to think, it confuses me.