I've had many lucid dreams in the past, but none were voluntarily induced. I've been trying to wild for a few months now, never had any success. Usually i would lay still for over an hour, counting up to 800. No SP. No sounds, vibrations nothing.
Last night i decided to go to bed at 6:00 pm. I was very tired from the long day. I lay down and attempted to WILD. I lay still for maybe an hour, no lucid, no SP, nothing. I rolled over and went to sleep.
I wake up and its 11:30pm. Slept for a few hours. I decided to eat since i was pretty hungry, made myself a nice meal, and ate it while browsing through dream views. Fortunately/Unfortunately i stumbled upon the NighStalker thread and read through most of it. I was fascinated by the idea of being able to walk between other peoples dreams.
After i finished reading, it was about 12:30am and i decided to sleep till morning. Was not attempting a WILD. I found it impossible to fall asleep. I rolled around in bed for maybe 2 hours. Thinking about random events in my life.
Suddenly my entire body starts shaking like there's some motor inside, I'm feeling very strong vibrations.. My eyesight dissipates and everything is black. Now I'm in front of nothing. Everything is black, but i know that I'm awake. I try to imagine that I'm in a scenario or a location, but no go.
Suddenly, i imagine a paintbrush in front of me. I see it. I pick red and draw a red square on the blackness in front of me. Then i draw a green square inside the red one. I find this interesting, and continue drawing squares inside squares until i have sort of a spiral. Then it hits me.
I suddenly take a step forward and I'm in a room. I realize I'm dreaming and look around, everything is very real. The giant wall in front of me has the square spiral i was drawing earlier on it. I feel excited, my dream is solid and there's no need for spinning or rubbing my hands together. I end up flying around, flying through walls (very easy), and just exploring. I end up going outside, and i attempt to fly to the moon.
Suddenly, i feel strange while flying up, as if something is coming for me. I decide to continue going up, but I'm not getting any closer. I wake up, I'm in my room, everything is dark. I try to move by I'm in SP. I can't break it. My door opens and something walks in. A hooded figure that i identified as a daemon walks up to my bedside. I want to get up and punch it in the face, but I'm in SP and cant move. It comes down and whispers something into my ear, i don't remember what but i think it was asking me something. I'm pretty freaked at this point, but i remember that everything that occurs during SP is a hallucination, so i don't care about the demon too much.
^^This turns out to be a fake awakening. The demon was part of my dream, not a hallucination of SP.
Suddenly everything shakes again, and I'm in another lucid which i cannot remember at this point. Wake up again. More demons by my bedside. More shaking. More dreams.
Eventually i wake up in reality, and realize that all of the above was just a dream. I never hallucinated a demon by my bed. It's about 2:30 am now. And i fall asleep till morning.
Lessons learned?
1) Demon=Dreamsign. Don't freak. It's either a hallucination or part of my dream already. As most people say that their hallucinations are not imagery, only sounds and vibrations, i doubt that any figure will be part of my hallucination. So it must have been part of my dream.
2) Always do a reality check. In this case i had maybe 2~3 false awakenings. Which i should have caught.
3) Don't get too excited. Always spin a little and rub hands together. Just to make sure dream stays intact.
It still bothers me that i did a WILD without any intention. I could not do it while purposely laying still. Only when i decided to give up was i able to enter my dream. How come i cant enter SP?
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