there has been many times where i think i am awake, its like half sleepparalysis and half lucid dreaming. i know i am in bed, can feel myself lying there unable to move, i cant even open my eyes. only a few times have a opened my eyes but couldnt keep them open. its like im dreaming but my real body is trying to move. And often when i am lying there i sense a presence in the room. sometimes i think it is real and force myself to wake and theres no one there. i feel like its real because i am not dreaming anything its like im just lying there with my eyes shut. not seeing anything just thinking. But if i carry on the presence stays. only a couple of times have i managed to open my eys. but alot of the time i am dreaming i am awake as if everything is normal and i have woken up only once i really wake up do i know its a dream. i think i would realise it was a dream if everything wasnt so normal, just dreaming that i wake up in my bed.
one time i could hear screaming from a woman in my room and the presence of a man, but i was paralysed in bed. they were in my bedroom, i thought it was real. i forced my eyes to open and could see a man trying to kill a woman but i know i was dreaming when i knew i fell asleep at the otherside of my bed and should have been looking at the wall. but when i opened my eyes i wasnt. imy eyes forced shut again and forced myself to wake as i couldnt bear the screaming. it was awful. as it was so real, my bedroom as it really is it felt so real. i can fall back into it very easily!