Deetee
Lurker

Okay so, my whole life I've had weird dreams. I've never controlled them or had any idea within my dreams to control them. I don't think I'm lucid but, I'm ALWAYS aware. Most the time I just forget the dreams, random interactions with people and places that don't mean much... But, every now and again my dream takes place while I'm laying in bed. Completely aware of the time, my place, my surroundings but, I don't get out of bed... Cause someone always "wakes" me up, I'm sleeping. sometimes they stop my dreams and bring me to my room, in my bed. Most the time it's just a conversation with a stranger, we'll just talk. I never completely remember the conversation, just that I had it. Other times I jump out of bed scared shitless, cause of the things said or I'll hear someone I love that's passed telling me I need to stop talking to someone. It's always been a part of my life, and I've never thought much of it, other than the times I've woke up terrified. I can only count two times I've never actually seen the people in my room, the first time it was just a deep voice. It scared me eventually waking me up, and afterwards I heard my grandma telling me to pray. The second time was last night, I was "woke" up, and asked if I could help him. I just leaned on my elbow and asked what... The voice sounded friendly, not threatening at all like the first, but when he walked towards me from the corner of black darkness of my room, a tall white man in a hat with a white fuzz/fluff engulfing everything but his face walked toward me and I couldn't process it. As he got closer, I noticed the fuzz was moving, like worms in a ball type movement, like he was stuck in between it all and I finally looked at him and he didn't have a face! None! Idk, I was terrified, first moving fuzz that wouldn't leave then a tall man without a face!?? Idk whether I was scared of him, or the situation, I was awake after that though. He's not gone, I know he's not. His voice was friendly, but if I saw the same silhouette on the streets in reality I'd steer the fuck away from him, like I said. I've always talked to people in my sleep, sometimes shit links to past stuff that I just see as a coincidence, and sometimes I talk to passed relatives but, this times it's not the same. I woke up, and I still feel the same uncomfortable feeling I felt last night. The same feeling I can connect to the last couple of days, wtf is going on!?? If lucid dreaming really is real, and people have "beacons" come find me, I talk back, I remember that much. I'm on an island in Alaska. Or at least someone tell me how to asses this situation, just keep note. I'm only aware of my surroundings, I can't control them. I haven't tried, but idk what to do. Do I need a fucking priest though?? This is the first board I've been accepted into, I need help. I'm scared to sleep.