kiffakitty
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This is my first dream journal entry, so hopefully I am doing it right. Mostly, I am just procrastinating from my 30 page paper, the one thing that is much more of a nightmare than zombies.

The Ring girl: Seriously, if anyone has dreams with the ring girl, please respond! Don't even read the rest of my crappy post-lol- I am just curious what she does in other people's dreams. I have a pool in my backyard, and in my dreams she lives in it. I cannot go swimming, or in the backyard, without seeing her standing on top of the water. When I am lucid, I fly over the pool to avoid her. Sometimes, I swim up to her and touch her face, or I try to hold her hand. Whenever I see her she makes me lucid, but she is still creepy. In my dreams, the pool is a source of evil. It is beautifully blue, and dark/endless at the same time. The water grabs hold of you and drags you to the bottom. Sometimes, I try to walk on the water but she suddenly appears in front of me. She never does me any harm, she just stares at me resentfully with her eyeless eyes.

Zombies: I know a lot of people say that they love zombie dreams because they go all badass on them, but zombies are a huge source of anxiety for me. It isn't like "Left for Dead", it is like "Night of the Living Dead". They walk slowly towards me and yet they never do anything! If I swing a knife at them, it just slices their skin. If I try to shoot them, I miss. They don't even try to fight back, they wait patiently while I try (for what seems like forever) to hack them apart. And I can't do it. When I am lucid, I tell them to wait by the door or leave my house and they listen. But they still stand there, watching me and it makes my head spin with anxiety. I realized that if I just join them, then I wont have a conflict. So I become a zombie, but then I spend the rest of the dream hiding from humans. When I am a zombie, I still stay away from them-they say that I smell delicious. They turn to face me when I walk by, and they don't believe that I am one of them.

Dolls: I have the same problem with Dolls. Dolls are more scary though because I have a childhood fear of them. They never do anything either, and yet they are 100 times scarier than zombies. They come out of my mother's room and walk down the hall. Sometimes, I just see a sliver of their hair, their face or their arm as they lean into the hall from my mother's room and peek into the hallway. They are mute, and they look like American Girl Dolls (those things are pure evil). Sometimes I hear them claw at my closet door, or even worse, their little hands begin to slowly move the door open. All they want is love and affection, and all I want to do is avoid them like the plague. I am afraid that they will lock me in the closet with them, and will force me to play with them forever.
(Background Info: When I was a child, I used to lock my dolls up in my closet, so that they couldn't get me. My mother used to tell me that my dolls were real and all they wanted was for me to love them (that evil bitch, lol). I felt horribly guilty because I hated them, and I began to believe that they hated me because I didn't love them back. I would become so sleep deprived as a child that I would literally imagine that I could hear them scratching at the door at night. When I looked at them from the corner of my eye, it seemed like they were moving ever so slightly. Moreover, when I was at sleepovers, I would wait until my friends went asleep and would lock their dolls in the closet too).

Vampires: Oddly enough, now I am now having vampire dreams and it is plain silly. I am not even scared of vampires! When I think of vampires, I think of Buffy the Vampire Slayer or Twilight. So I have no idea why I have started having nightmares about them. Even in my dream, I think to myself "man, this is plain stupid!". My mind has decided that vampires are like super zombies; they are faster, smarter, and more devious. I always outsmart zombies, but I can never outsmart vampires. They can always find me because they can smell my fear. If I am not afraid, then they think I am one of them. They always trick me, and then boast about it when I am trapped. They taunt me before they eat me and show contempt. Sometimes my father is a vampire and has turned my entire family into vampires. He promises me that it won't hurt when he bites me, and he promises that if I become a vampire that I can live happily and safely. But in his eyes I see hunger, I sense he is just trying to use me. Plus it is very awkward!!!! I go into the street looking for someone else to turn me into a vampire, but everyone just wants to use me for their pleasure -nobody wants to help me because they are good. I don't want to be used. This is kinda how I feel about relationships too, lol X__x.