steviewc
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Okay so I have my own personal, physical journal but I just wanted to post this one on here as it's the first time I've gotten lucid since I started focusing on dreaming again (in a long time) last week.

I was in my room with my cousin, standing by the closed door, and I told her "I'm going to walk through the door." because I thought I was dreaming. (Questioning whether I'm dreaming or not and walking through walls/doors were never reality checks that I thought I would try, I had only briefly read about them once so I'm excited that I thought to try them)
So I stuck my arm out, and started walking, and my arm went through the door. The feeling is so weird, it's like something is gently rubbing against you, or some kind of gentle breeze. My arm went through, and then my head, which was really cool, and I could see the bathroom and my sister's room. So I had successfully walked THROUGH my door. Upon this realization, I got excited and said, "I'm dreaming!" I ran through my hallway to the living room, shouting to my cousin that I'm gonna try flying. I stood there, looked up, and reached out my arms. And then I didn't fly. Then I thought, "ok, maybe I'm not dreaming." to which I then walked back to my room, where my cousin was waiting, and I told her I'm gonna try walking through the door again. So I put out my hands and pushed them against the door, and they resisted. I felt my hands hit my door. They wouldn't go through.
Then I was convinced I was just awake and being ridiculous.

Also, since I'm writing in here anyway, the next dream happened in a hotel-size room. Apparently I was at my graduation dance, and I saw my dad behind this random wall sitting at a small and high table with a boy that I knew. He was asking my dad for permission to ask me to the dance. I somehow already knew he was asking my dad this, but I asked my dad anyway what they're talking about. My dad told me, and I started laughing, kinda embarrassed, and hit the boy on his shoulder and I walked away.
I then woke up, kind of anxious, actually, then I remembered that I already graduated 7 months ago, and there was no dance to get anxious about.

Other dreams:
1. I was in a pole-dancing/ballet class and a woman told me to swing on the pole, and hold that position then rest my feet on a boys stomach while he ballet dances.
2. I had a camera-point-of-view behind Drew Barrymore and Adam Sandler walking together, Adam holding her shoulders, and Drew holding his waist looking up at him affectionately trying to kiss him. Drew was pregnant with his baby, apparently, and also they had gotten married because she couldn't get pregnant the first time with him (my brain was telling me these facts as I was looking at their PDA)
3. I was in a cul-de-sac neighborhood decorated with white christmas lights, and there were about 5-6 foot pine trees everywhere, and there were small patches of snow, and it was slightly snowing. I remember hearing crying and seeing a taxi (there was suddenly a lot of snow on the ground) and knowing my cousin (a different one) was crying in there. She was with her boyfriend (which I just recently found out) and I remember feeling responsible for making her cry, so I kissed her head and told her I was sorry. She laughed and sobbed a little bit and "That's not why I'm crying." I don't remember what I told her after that, or if I even did tell her anything, but I know I said after that "I'll see you later." the taxi drove away, I turned around to look at the neighborhood, and I looked up thinking about the boy that I'm insanely in love with.
4. I was in a stadium (like a basketball stadium gym-thing) and there were about 25+ other people just throwing basketballs onto the court.
5. There was a couple I was looking at, sitting on bleachers. Two young blondes. Both lanky. The girls hair was curly and she had freckles. The girl was showing him a picture on her phone of her vehicle and he said "you don't look like you drive a rove ranger" to which I then imagined her driving a station wagon because that's what I thought she drove. Suddenly I was in her body, driving a red jeep, or it could've been a rove ranger (it was box-like), and her best friend was sitting in the passenger (both are just DCs) I remember driving fast trying to get somewhere, then with MY eyes (the girls body I'm in is focusing on the road) I look to the right and see a boy and a girl driving to a graveyard. I know in my gut that he's going to chase us because he second-glances us and he looks angry all of a sudden. The girl's best friend notices this, too, and starts freaking out (I don't remember how, I just know she does) We're driving on a freeway, on the far right lane closest to the grass that separates the freeway and the trail to the graveyard. So he cuts theough the grass towards us, tailgating us, and starts shooting. I swerve right and we spin a couple times. He parks besides us, facing my passenger window, and shoots once. I pretend I get hit, and let my head roll. The other girl is staring at me, and she starts panicking, I scream at her to play dead but her eyes are looking straight through me and she's talking about life and I start screaming more. The guy doesn't seem to notice that neither of us are dead so I put it into drive and drive away.
6. My auntie drives into a wide but small grocery store's parking lot (it's on the side of a freeway) it's an enter-only entrance, and there's a car driving towards us, she calls him an idiot, starts beeping her horn, and proceeds to call him stupid (she might've called him a dick or a cock-sucker but I might just be making this part up. But it would be funny because she doesn't swear like this. At least not in front of me)
7. I'm walking through a small apartment hallway to a small room. All I remember is there's an attractive boy, we're both wearing cool clothes, and one of us asks if tge other is ready (i dont remember) we're both wearing black leather snapbacks. I remember hugging him? I think? This is really weird to think about because he's just a DC. Anyway, I'm assuming we were living together.

Most of these have an explanation:
1a. I'm a dancer. Not a pole dancer. Nor do I really like ballet dancing. But I follow a girl on instagram that pole dances as a sport and she had posted a video that I saw.
2a. I low-key want Drew Barrymore and Adam Sandler to be together. Also, I woke up from this dream in the middle of the night convinced they she was pregnant with his child, I almost googled it but was too tired so I went back to sleep.
3a. I associate all good things, and happiness, from city-life things and christmas things like christmas lights, snow, and pine trees. I've been kind of sad lately that winter's ending and that it wasn't exactly the same type of feeling that I always used to have. Also my cousin has a boyfriend and they live together (they're adorable) I haven't seen her since I graduated, nor have I talked to her, and I miss her a lot. So that's how she made her way into my dream.
Whenever it snows, or I see something pretty, I think about the boy I'm in love with. It's cool how I also did that in my dream.
4a. I have no explanation.
5a. I've been playing GTA5 lately, as it helps calm down my driving anxiety and my fear of guns (lol) so I'm assuming that's the reason for this dream. Plus I know that if someone were to shoot at me, and I don't get hit, I would just play dead.
6a. My auntie has road rage and I remember seeing this store on GTA5, I think it's called dollar pharmacy or something, but the entrance I dreamed of isn't there.
7a. There's these shoes, and shirt, and hat that I want. And I was wearing them in my dream. I also sometimes wonder what it would be like to live in an apartment with a friend, not my family