I am the nightmarish character

[Rapterbone]

Lately, I've been having a reoccurring dream (in varying forms) where I am double crossed by someone in a horrible way, usually where another tries to ruin me. My dream progresses into my cultivating a desire for revenge, taking unspeakable actions against those who harmed me. Please note that this is going to sound GRAPHIC and very VIOLENT... In my first dream, I can't remember the exact way that I was betrayed, but I do remember the intensity of emotion that spawned from it. The dream progressed into a scene where I had my betrayer tied to a chair, only to impose a series of inhumane torture methods upon her (note it's a female). The dream turned graphic, ranging from beatings to lighting on fair to eventually murder. I woke up in a panic because this freaked me out. In my second dream, I was staying at a hotel in Seattle. I met and became good friends with this family of three (mother, father, daughter). They earned my trust. Eventually, the daughter tells me in secret that they plan to ruin me by stealing everything from me. I become indignant. The dream turns ugly... I broke into their hotel room, tied up the little girl, and peacefully, but graphically, raped the mother (oxymoron?). I can't recall what and if I did anything to the father. Anyways, I spared the daughter for her humanity, jumped out the window, and was caught by the police after trying to jump onto a moving train. It seems to me that the person I strike revenge on is always a female. It may also help to know that I haven't had true intimate, requited feelings for a female in several years. Trust issue? As a disclaimer: I have no criminal intentions, no desire to hurt others, and feel terrible when I awaken from these nightmares. Hoping for any help or explanation.

[Rapterbone]

Addition: though I haven't had intimate feelings for females in several years, I haven't had a lack of relations with them (I've slept with and seen numerous women in this time).

[DreamyBear]

Addition: though I haven't had intimate feelings for females in several years, I haven't had a lack of relations with them (I've slept with and seen numerous women in this time). I get the impression that your feelings have been hurt by someone you loved before. That this fear of being betrayed again, have resulted in a deep urge for revenge because of a possible heartbreak moment by a person that you once loved and thought you could trust. Does this sound like a possible explanation for you?