I'm sure there's a simple explanation for all of this, but I've gotten to the point where I really don't know how to interpret any of it myself. :/ So a little help would be appreciated, I guess.
Here's background.
I've been dating a really wonderful guy for almost two years now. I absolutely adore him. He's my best friend in the world, and I would never do anything to hurt him. :] He's the source of a lot of happiness for me, obviously.
But for the past three months, I have had recurring dreams (I've counted at least twelve that I can remember) about one of his best friends, Kevin. Kevin and I are pretty good friends too, but I wouldn't call us anywhere near as close as he is to my boyfriend.
The recurring dreams I've had about Kevin are romantic - they're never sexual, and usually involve us kissing or holding hands. In all the dreams, we confess deep feelings for eachother either verbally or in that way dreams have where you just KNOW things, and for the remainder of the dream are happy together. Even blissful.
I've written most of them down, and from observation they all share these qualities:
1. My dream self is always still dating my current boyfriend.
2. Kevin always talks to me in these dreams. His most common lines:
"I wish I could tell you how much I want you."
"I love you."
"If it weren't for him, wouldn't we have love?"
"This is how much I want you."
3. I'm always happy in the dream, but fearful of my boyfriend's reaction. In general, the tone of the surroundings and of Kevin is joyful. I wake up from these dreams feeling sorry that they're over, and then kicking myself for it.
4. We are always 'hiding' in the dreams, so that people won't see us together.
5. The most prevalent colors are blue, yellow and white. I have very vivid dreams.
Uh... so yes. The first two or three times, I thought it was because we were spending a little more time and getting to know eachother, and I really thought nothing of it. Ten or so later, I'm honestly bothered by them. Are these dreams trying to tell me that I have feelings for Kevin? Is my subconcious maybe picking up those kinds of feelings from him toward me? Maybe it only means that Kevin and I have the potential to be really close?
Hopefully it means nothing.
Thanks for reading, if you did, and any help is very very very appreciated.
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