Seriously, I just can't. I search all the time, it's all I ever do. Even when I'm at school it's all I ever think about. The truth?

I started to believe in God in December, and I've thought about Christ. The bible is just a bunch of inconsistent nonsensical jibber jabber. One minute it's saying that souls can die; the next minute it's saying that they burn in hell forever. One minute God is merciful and slow to anger, then he commands genocide and murder. What the fuck is going on?

It's like there is no one true interpritation of it. Everyone is so frigging different. And even putting Christianity aside there's all the other world religions. Are they all part of the same thing, or is one right and all the others are wrong?

The entire universe makes no sense. Nothing accounts for the complexity. I'm halfway between a Christian and a nihilist... WTF do I do? If I don't have a world view then I'm simply incapacitated?

Is truth relative? What if there IS no objective truth?

WTF man?

It makes me feel so miserable

What can I do? This hurts.