Originally posted by Universal Mind
Tell us some of your campfire stories about brushes with danger from alcohol. This thread can be an internet AA meeting.
I mostly just consider the trouble that I've gotten into over it to be worse. As far as how drunk I've gotten, I've been to the point where, if a cop or someone would have found me, they would have taken me to the ER; however, a cop didn't find me, and my friends took care of me instead. I don't remember it, obviously, but I was passed out, unable to be roused, drooling and puking a lot and making moaning noises that were probably an attempt at speech. That particular night ended up okay, though. I woke up the next day somehow in my own bed, still trashed from the night before (so the crippling hangover hadn't started yet), and I had blacked out so completely the night before that I didn't even remember drinking at all. That was actually kind of funny; I woke up the next day in my bed, honestly thinking that I had just gone to bed at 10:30 or so and not done anything the night before. Then, I noticed that something just didn't feel right. I couldn't figure out at first what it was, then it hit me: Holy shit, I'm drunk! WTF? I noticed that I was lying on top of my covers, wearing all the same clothes as yesterday, including my shoes still being on. Apparently I had not gone to bed at 10:30 the night before . I don't really dwell on that, though, especially since nothing serious happened, but I don't ever plan on getting that drunk again!
About 6 weeks ago I was arrested for public intox while on my school campus. All kinds of shit came from that. Not only that, but I've come very close to getting another PI ticket no less than two times since then; I was extremely fortunate in both cases not to. My school is notified every time a student is arrested in my town, doesn't matter where it happened or what happened. If I get another PI, I might be expelled, maybe suspended, something. If I get a third I'm out.
So yeah, I know I could benefit from quitting altogether, but instead I'm just trying to work on keeping the drinking under control. Sometimes it gets a bit out of hand still, but live and learn, eh? To me, quitting altogether is like deciding that you're simply not capable of controlling yourself when you drink, and resigning to just give up trying. I am confident that I can control my drinking, even if it takes a bit of time. Maybe I'll fuck up and get burned again. Maybe not. We'll see.
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