I wish you would stop and just GROW UP i cant stand the way you sit back there and say shit like you all that. all of you just smile at those stupid jokes like there funny well there not and they hurt if you were a friend and the jokes were funny then i wouldn't mind but you aren't and you don't care you just want to hurt like it makes you feel big and strong you are just a dick and little prick and road bump in my life and when i grow up and become the dream chef i want to be you wont say anything you will just gape at me as i smile and walk past you still in this shitty little town ill be in new York or Boston and own a great train of restraunts. you though will still be working in some stupid little job at mcdonalds with you 8 kids you CANT support. and i wont care then but i care now and i hate my self for it i hate my self for giving you the time of day i just want you to die and leave me alone....or maybe i want to die and be left alone in a nice quite place where i can lay and think. and all the other people just SIT THERE like vegetables and grin and drool like any of you know any thing. going "ya " and "good one man " i wish you would just think before you speak but you cant think without a brain so i guess i you cant. i could beat i know a could im bigger and faster but i wouldn't just let you win like that let you know i care what you say but when i hear you or even see i get a ravenous urge to tear you apart and just cry hot tears in rage and fear and sorrow that i would even THINK of letting my emotions rule me like that. and at school there are other others that leer and point like i am a freak they move over when i sit down, its got better but its still not good i have friends now and a girl friend but i still hurt when people say things to me so what if i don't act like you or dress like you. the ONLY thing that makes us different is that you are so stupid to think that we are really not the same. and my biggest fear in life is that ignorance is hereditary. |
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