Last night I tried to WILD for the first time, and the results were... interesting. I didn't use WBTB- I just read a book for 30 minutes before bed to relax and then started meditating on my back. It took a while but I started getting numb and losing track of where my limbs were, and my eyes started twitching randomly, and I started getting weird sensations like the surface I was sleeping on rotating around in space, and I knew that REM paralysis had set in. There were no pretty lights or images though, just darkness. At this point I got really excited because I didn't think I would manage it on the first time, and my heart started beating really fast. That was probably one of my mistakes. Then I remembered that I had to imagine my dream, so I tried to imagine the beach world I had planned. But it seemed really far away, and whenever I got close I would start swimming out and eventually end up alone in the deep ocean, which I'm really terrified of. I tried to rewind back to sitting on the beach a few times, but I always ended up in the deep ocean. Eventually I just gave up, but the reality was no better. I was trapped in my own body with sleep paralysis, and I couldn't call for help. After realizing that I kind of just panicked, and my heart started beating even faster. I didn't try to move or open my eyes though, because I had heard stories about sleep paralysis and they were not fun. Eventually, though, I had had enough and I tried moving a finger. That spread an amazing sense of relief through my body and I was free, and also drenched with sweat. That should have deterred me from ever WILDing again, but I still want to keep trying. I'm afraid, though, that the memory of that experience will keep me from relaxing enough. Any tips?
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