What I've been doing for couple of nights is to try to keep my eyes open, when I'm about to fall asleep. Not forcing them to open, but bit of recistance not to "go out", I also think: "I'll stay conscious, I'll stay conscious..."

So is this WILD? Directly from waking state to lucid dream, that's what it is, right?

My results are very bright light as soon as I realize I'm sleeping. The light covers my entire field of vision. At the first night this happened I was keeping my cool, wondering what to do with it. Tried to make an apple appear on my hand, but all I got was green blurry mist, which was trying to turn into an apple, but didn't. Oh me with little faith!

Last night I had similar light but also some sound effect connected to the light. Bit like those "ganzfeld" -noises (you should be able to find them from YouTube). There were also some sort of wall of light or something, which blocked me and I wasn't able to do even the blurry apple mist, because I began to think my body is in sleep and therefore I can't reach my hand out to the dream... How stupid of me! I don't even believe "me" is this body, but rather my consciousness... if even that. Ok, that is bit zen...

So not having a dream body I was able to turn the noise down and effect the brightness of the light a bit, but then I woke up and wrote something to my dream journal, that I can't read. Well, at least I remember all of the above.

I wonder, should I continue with this technique. I've heard WILD is one of the most difficult techniques, but then again, is it difficult because we believe it is? Another strange thing is, now that I'm trying to have lucid dreams, I can barely remember my non-lucid dreams at all and I used to remember loads of them.

I've read about MILD and meditation is part of, right? I've done lot of meditating, even reach what Buddhist call "piiti" or "piti" twice. It's a blissful state, where the mind is completely still. There were not a single thought in my mind for about 40 minutes and the feeling of happiness was amazing. Maybe there is the answer, one can't reach blissful state by trying to reach it.