More WILD problems.

[Raevan]

Heh. Ya'll probably don't remember me but I was on here earlier this year (And the year before) asking about WILDs. After many failed attempts at lucid dreaming, I took a break (although that didn't help before). I attempted to WILD again last night, because that's the method that I've had the most success with. Here's the story: I lay in bed and get into the most comfortable position for me. I close my eyes and try to ignore all the sounds around me, focusing on the blackness. Very quickly, I start seeing HI (is it good that I can see it so fast?) and I focus on the lights. Sometimes I let the patterns go their own way, other times I manipulate them. After several minutes, my arms and legs start feeling heavy. My fingers and toes start twitching, or want to, randomly. After awhile, my entire body is tingling and very heavy, but I'm still very well attuned to what's going on around me. Small sounds start getting louder and annoying. I feel like my body's asleep, but not my mind. Here are my problems: I can't tell if I'm seeing parts of a dream, or if my eyes are opening slightly. Everyone in awhile, I'll see a bright shape that's different from the usual lines and dots. How am I supposed to know? I can tell my body is asleep, but it just feels like my mind isn't going anywhere. Is this normal, or what? I keep getting impatient. I sat like that for over an hour (about an hour and 23 minutes, I believe) and by the last few minutes, I got angry. I opened my eyes and nothing was different except for the fact that it felt like my body was made of lead. I went to roll over, but it took several seconds for my body to respond. I know I was getting somewhere but my body falls asleep very quickly. How long should it take for my mind to drift off? When I'm focusing on the HI, I find myself focusing on a certain area. When I relax my eyes and let them go back to their default position, my stomach kind of...jumps. Like I get the feeling that I just lost my stomach ( it feels great! ). Plus, all the lights suddenly jump and bulge slightly, like they're about to take on a shape. Sometimes I can see a face but no matter what I do, it's gone immediately. Help? :3 And finally, every once in awhile, I find I have a hard time breathing. It feels like there's a weight on my chest and, when I breath out, I take a lot less breath back. I usually get panicked and open my eyes. I really appreciate all the help I may receive. LDing is one of the only things I -really- want to do. EDIT: Is it at all possible for this to be moved to the WILD section? I seem to have clicked the wrong name before writing this up xD