Hey there.

I'm writing here, again, because since the last time i wrote here i did a lot of progress but i still have a problem.

I managed to have 2 DEILD already and 1 WILD which happened yesterday. Today in the morning i tried another WILD and almost succeeded. I had a lot of DEILD failed in the middle (since i started WILDing) because of this problem i'll talk about.

Well, what's happening is the following. My first DEILD failed because i got scared either of the shaking (1st time, now i overcome it), the burst of light i kept getting (i do't get it anymore but i think i could overcome it this time if i had it again) and lately because i feel a pressure in some parts of my body (mainly my shoulder).

First time i felt this pressure i had an evil presence sensation and the point of pressure was my head. It just felt like a giant animal was putting its face against my head. It scared the crap out of me. In another time i felt the same pressure but it was on the shoulder. I aborted the attempt again because i tought it was really strange.

This night as i said before i tried again imbued in hope because i had finally achieved a WILD in the night before. I went to the point i heard a buzz in my hears (had it already in another attempt) and i felt the same pressure on my shoulder. I was decided to overcome it so i didn't care. A while after it felt like something was pulling myself out of my body, like a hand (now i see why some people believe its an out of body experience), in a movement upwards. After a while i felt as if it left its intention. Then i felt it again on the shoulder and i was grabbed and pulled towards the end of my bed. I was with my stomach turned towards the end of the bed when i opened my eyes (at least i had that vision, don't know if i was already in a dream scenary or just allucinating). Was so damn realistic that i got scared again and aborted the attempt. When i awake for real i could see i was in the same place in bed and that it was an alucination.

It was a really intense experience. I want to overcome it, so i can get in a dream like i did 2 nights ago.

When i had the 1st WILD i didnt get this pressure thing, i was trying to WILD and suddenly i felt my eyes open and a dream appeared. I was in my room and the daylight came in through the window (usually i don't have it in a way that the daylight can come in, so i knew i was dreaming right at the beginning). Now i can't manage to enter a dream again, i always get to the part of the allucinations and SP and don't progress forward...

Help me plz, if you can. Should i wait for this to calm down and then i'll find myself in a dream? Or should i take a more active role in this part by doing something (need a suggestion xD)? I don't like much being grabbed and thrown to places by allucinations, lol.