I have tried WILDing a whole bunch of times, but I never seem to be able to even enter the sleep paralysis stage. I usually go with the counting breaths metod, and as for most out there, I lose my counting due to random thoughts popping up. The problem is, when I realize I've lost count, and start counting again at the number I guess I was at, I always become "too awake", and sorta lose the connection I had with my dreams.
I actually just now tried WILDing during an afternoon nap, and I started off with the counting my breaths as usual. After a while, however, I started feeling like I was bouncing softly, as if I was lying in one of those safety nets that acrobats use, and someone was tugging on it from beneath, letting go, tugging, letting go, and so on. I decided to try and focus on that feeling, and see if that would help me shift my focus from external feelings to internal, and it seemed to work, for a while.
However, the feeling got more and more intense, and I could imagine myself bouncing higher and harder, and I started feeling the wind against my arms and so on, and in the end it got really intense, which made me lose focus and drop right back to before I even felt those feelings. I could still imagine myself in that safety net, I just wasn't bouncing anymore. I tried to regain focus however, and soon I started feeling that sensation of bouncing again. I could keep focused a little while longer this time, but alas, I lost focus when the feeling got too intense. I believe I tried close to 20 times, going a tiny bit further each time, but always losing focus in the end, and dropping right back. Eventually I gave up, after an hour and a half of lying in my bed trying to stay with that bouncing feeling.
I never felt even close to entering sleep paralysis, even though I could kinda "lose" my real body the more I got in touch with the "dream" body (the one that was bouncing).
Was I indeed far away from sleep paralysis? Should I have kept on trying to stay focused all through the "bouncing"? Or did I go straight to a step beyond the sleep paralysis without experiencing it at all? I am getting quite frustrated with this inability to WILD, or even have an SP.
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